How I’m Preparing For An Uncertain Future

Firstly, I must apologise for not writing on here for a while. There are a few reasons for that which I’ll briefly explain and if you’re still following me here, thank you for sticking around! This blog was the first thing I ever set up to share my writing on, and it’s still hugely important to me, so rest assured, it’s not going anywhere!

In all honestly, my head has been in such a spin lately that it’s been hard to write. At all.

I haven’t written anything on Medium for a while either, despite having so much whirling in my head. I just about manage to write and post my weekly round-ups on Substack – probably because they are quite short and quick to write and follow a sort of template.

I cannot allow myself to write too much fiction at the moment because I am still in the middle of the endless editing…. More on that next week, but I am getting there and Black Hare Valley Book 2: 1966 is edging closer to publication, I promise!

Last year was a tricky one for me creatively. I started to struggle a bit with my day job as a creative writing tutor for children. I’ve had to make a lot of changes there to make it work, and I’m pleased to say that they do seem to be paying off. Again, that’s probably another topic for another day! But the burn-out stretched itself to writing on Medium and my blog. I kept thinking of things to write and then not writing them, which is very unlike me. I definitely lost a bit of confidence and I’m not entirely sure why.

One thing that has been on my mind a lot though is preparedness.

And that mindset and accompanying concerns has led me to writing this post. I am really hoping writing it kickstarts my creativity again when it comes to regular blogging and essay writing!

Firstly, what is preparedness and what does it mean to me?

Preparedness for me simply means planning ahead to make life easier for future me. It really is as simple as that and I think I’ve been doing that for a while now. For example, making two batches of cookies and freezing one batch so future me has some back-up snacks! Baking two loaves, instead of one, and chucking one in the freezer in case we run out of bread and forget to pick some up. Stuff like that.

But in recent months the desire to be more prepared for an uncertain future has really spiralled in me and taken over my life. I wouldn’t call myself a doomsday prepper – far from it – but I do think we are living in unprecedented times which call for us to change our thinking and our habits.

El Nino, climate change related disasters, wildfires and floods, extreme heat, war and conflict, cyber attacks and rogue AI are all here, right now.

Food prices are never going to go down again unless we change the entire system.

I can’t change the world but I can do everything possible for me and my family, and hopefully in time, my community. Preparing for the worst is not fear-mongering, it is simply thinking of future you and making sure everything is okay for them.

Here’s what I’ve been up to:

Vegetable plot/fruit trees/fruit bushes: I planted two apples, a pear, two plums and various fruit bushes when we moved here nearly 17 years ago and I am so glad I did! Though the apple harvest this year has been disappointing, I have managed to grow and preserve fruit from the garden and that feels very reassuring! I am now pretty good at keeping the plot producing year round and currently have just as much growing out there as I did in the summer. I have just added a brand new extension to the plot which will be potatoes and I have plans to extend the plot up the side of the garden to grow even more. I have grown and harvested oats for the first time and I’m planting wheat again soon.

Keeping ducks and chickens: I’m lucky that I have the space to do this and I have recently added to the brood. Two ducklings were born last month and are being raised by their lovely mum, and the chicks we raised in the spring are now adult and laying eggs. Currently I have six ducks and eight chickens. I keep males too so that I can always have more! I have plans for a few more chickens and then I’d like to start selling eggs locally.

Making my own compost: I have one main compost heap and another smaller one that is central in a ‘key-hole’ raised bed. I did still have to buy in compost this year but a lot less than usual, and with all the duck and chicken poo fertilising the land, I am very lucky!

No waste: Or at least, as little as possible! Food scraps go to the hens and ducks or into the compost, or to make things like apple cider vinegar and stock! Egg shells are washed and stored and eventually baked and whizzed into grit that gets added back into their food. It all goes around in a very satisfying circle.

Water collection and storage: We recently bought a second water butt and I would like to get a third in time. I also have another small container that collects rainwater. I also bought two of those water filtration straws to keep as an emergency. I’ve got a small amount of stored bottle water too and I’ve water bath canned some water in jars which can last for decades.

Preserving food: This is a new area for me and I’m really enjoying it! Obviously I have always frozen excess food, but this year I also started drying, canning and pickling! The only thing I haven’t tried yet is fermenting. (Unless you count the cider vinegar) What constantly goes through my head is it’s all very well growing food, but we also have to build up a store cupboard and preserve things for Winter. Just like the old days, I guess.

Keeping a store cupboard: I only started this fairly recently and it has already been a life-saver a few times. We don’t have a huge budget and cannot afford to rush to the shops to stockpile food, water and medicines if the worst happened, so I started small and slow. If I didn’t need a bag of pasta, I would buy one anyway. Old me would look at the cupboards and make a shopping list based on what we didn’t have. Now I do that, but I also add things to the list that we do have. That’s how I’ve slowly built up my supply. I pay particular attention to dried food such as oats, pasta, rice, noodles, tinned fruit, vegetables and meat, and preserving ingredients such as salt, sugar and vinegar. Recently one of our daughter’s left home to start her adult life and had no money for food due to paying out deposits and so on, but I was able to give her plenty of things from the cupboards to get her started and it didn’t leave us short at all. Last week we didn’t have much money, but we didn’t need it because the cupboards are all so full. This week, payments came in, so I went shopping and replaced everything we had used to get it back to the same level. Incidentally, I do the same with the car now. I keep it at half a tank full of petrol at all times.

Being prepared for emergencies: The local wildfires this summer were far too close for comfort and finally prompted me to put together a get-up-and-go-bag. This is a work in progress but so far consists of: a first aid kit, hand sanitiser, wet wipes, bottled water, crackers and chocolate spread, biscuits, cereal bars, dog food and fork, torch, wet weather gear, lighter, waterproof matches, small amount of cash, toothpaste and toothbrushes and important documents in a waterproof wallet (including written down phone numbers.) I have a separate ‘breakdown’ bag for the car, which makes me feel much better as we do tend to a lot of long road trips in our old car… Waterproofs, small first aid kit, wet wipes, hand sanitiser, dog food, torch, cash, cereal bars, waterproof matches, lighter, blanket and warm hats. And for the lounge in case of power outages (which we get a lot of around here anyway) the ‘blackout box’ which is also a work in progress and so far has: candles, tealights and small glass jars to place in, phone numbers, a lighter, waterproof matches and a radio.

There are more things I want to add to both bags and the box but I feel all three will make life easier and less stressful in the event of an emergency of prolonged power cut. I felt better as soon as they were done.

Thinking and planning ahead: It is sometimes hard to think about the future when the world is in so much turmoil but we can’t give up, can we? I think gardening is all about hope for the future which is one of the reasons it is so good for us mentally and physically. Growing a garden proves you have faith in a tomorrow and are actively planning for it. Planting grains such as wheat and oats is a bit experimental for me at the moment but I would love to eventually grow my own chicken food! And of course, my own porridge oats and flour. I am also growing lots and lots of beans, and in particular drying beans, such as kidney, butter and cannelinni. My plan is to have jars and jars of dried beans, as they last up to 30 years! I am also drying and saving beans and seeds to plant again next year. We will get more water storage at some point and as I said, the food we grow will only continue to increase as we gradually let it take over the whole garden!

I totally appreciate that not everyone can prepare to this extent. Not everyone can have ducks, chickens and fruit trees, and not everyone has enough space to grow grains, or vegetables. But everyone has a windowsill and you can very easily grow herbs that you could maybe swap locally for other food. You can grow lots of things on a balcony or in a small garden. People also need to unite together and target their local councils to open up spaces for community growing. This is something I would love to get involved in…

As for stocking up, again, I know not everyone has the budget to do this, but what I would implore lower budget households to do, is just buy one extra thing each week, one bag of pasta, rice or beans that you don’t actually need. That’s how you slowly build up supplies.

What do you think? Am I nuts? Or are you feeling and thinking the same? Have you made any changes to your household to become more resilient? Do you think the governments need to be doing more? Or would that just make people panic?

Stupid Poetry…

Three poems I published on Medium recently

Here are three poems I wrote recently and shared on Medium. I hope you like them! They were all a mix of found poetry and ‘normal’ poetry – by that I mean they all contain some things I overheard such as songs, news, people talking, and they all contain things I was thinking or feeling or seeing at the time, but they also all contain some lines I made up to help it all fit.

Stupid Poetry

Early morning
a two-tier sky
a world of dead grass
sun in our eyes
we’ll get there in the end
if you really wanna go
what we need we can’t have
unreality — we know
we just dance ourselves free
until we feel all right
say we can change, we can change
and dance on through the night
and we’ll write stupid poetry
that no one will ever read
to make life better in the moment
stupid you and stupid me

The Stag and the Orange Moon

my Converse on the dash, your hands on the wheel
deep down into the cold shadows
we travel with echoes of past us
in every song, alongside rivers
and across mountains, we were there
but now we are here
and one day, we will both disappear
do you remember when we were lost?
but it didn’t matter?
and I was sad about the dead deer
and the stiff badgers until
a giant stag stepped out in front
of an orange moon?
I’m falling like the leaves
and the trees will swallow you
what if I keep sinking?
what if we both just fade away?
time slips away, anyway
because we both know nothing matters
my bones ache — am I even alive?
lost, never coming home
but bound together, I take you
everywhere with me, you say;
let it go before it kills you
the time we had is lost
but I will always remember
the stag and the orange moon

In The Dark

In the dark, I know
death is always closer than you think
something in my eye
something in my teeth
there’s bits and pieces of me everywhere
a world underground
a weapon drawn

I just let it go
I sneak past
hawthorn trees hunched, deformed
a figure in black shaking back hair
something bored through hell
something in my throat
something in my skin

the stench of decay
mayflower blossom
some ancient magic, mine’s broken
as I climb to find the waiting forest
I see a green giant
bloated corpses, mangled deer
dead trees, in the dark

Black Hare Valley Book One: Meet The Characters

Black Hare Valley Book One: 1996 was released on 25th June and the ebook is still just 99p across all platforms! I was due to publish this post on release day but we had an internet outage for a week and I had stupidly not scheduled it.

When I first came up with the idea for Black Hare Valley, all I had was the genre, (horror) and the town, which I created as a map on a long piece of roll-out paper. I knew I wanted a missing child to be central to the storyline and I knew I wanted an unlikely group of misfit teenagers to be the ones attempting to solve the mystery.

It was not until years later, in 2023, that I started creating and developing my characters. Now that the book has developed into a 5-book series, it feels odd to me that I ever had to sit down and work on these characters. They are so real to me now and I am very much in love with them all. That, I think, is one joyful benefit of writing a series – getting to know the characters so well and seeing them grow and develop over time. In this post I am only concentrating on the main characters in book one. I will probably do a follow up character post on additional characters when the next book is out…

So, here they are. The main characters, both heroes and villains, in the Black Hare Valley Book One: 1996:

The heroes:

Jesse Archer: Aged 15. Tall for his age. Shoulder length dark brown hair, dark eyes, high cheekbones. As one of the notorious and much-maligned Archers, his reputation precedes him and he is hated in Black Hare Valley. Known as a thug, a bully and a hooligan, he is not expected to amount to much. His mother supposedly went crazy and ran away when he was ten, and since then he’s been dragged up by his useless, drunken father, Nick and his two criminal older brothers, Billy and Wyatt. On the surface, Jesse appears to be a typical Archer but underneath he has a gentle side that few see. He is hiding dark secrets and lives his life in constant fear. When he starts a friendship with mild Paddy Finnis, most assume he is bullying the boy, but nothing could be further from the truth. Jesse has found someone who wants to know him for him for the first time in his life. So, when Paddy vanishes, Jesse is as determined as anyone to find him. Jesse is at heart a hero, selfless, courageous and loyal. His negative traits are keeping secrets and being reckless.

Paddy Finnis: Aged 14. Small, dark-haired, wears glasses, lives with his father in a flat about The Magic of Books, which his father owns. Studious, but not shy, Paddy is a thinker. He questions everything and anything and never gets bored of learning new things. He is particularly fascinated with space and has two telescopes to watch the night skies with. His best friend is Willow Harrison, though they are quite different, they have been friends since early childhood. Where Willow is cynical and negative, Paddy tries to see the best in everyone and always looks on the bright side of life. A cheerful optimist, he happily welcomes Jesse Archer into his life and his world, despite Willow’s warnings that the boy must have ulterior motives. Paddy reads constantly and devours information. Was his thirst for knowledge what got him into trouble and led to his disappearance?

Willow Harrison: Aged 14. Tall and thin, long black hair, often dresses in dark or black clothes. Mocked around town and called ‘witchy Willow’. Her parents own a gift shop in the town and she lives with them in the flat above. Like Paddy, she is often found helping out in the shop, and in her spare time her hobbies are writing and wandering the town with Paddy. Willow is sarcastic, cynical and usually assumes the worst of people. Her mother suffers from depression which fills her with a constant fear that she might lose her. Willow also fears she may suffer from depression herself. Willow both loves and hates Black Hare Valley. She often covers for her mother when the strange Vicar Roberts comes into the gift shop asking for her. For some reason her mother seems afraid of him. Willow is fiercely loyal to Paddy and at first jealous of his new friendship with Jesse Archer. She has no need for other friends, but when Paddy vanished without trace in the night, Willow realises she must let her walls down just a bit, and joins forces with Jesse, new girl Jaime, and Ralph Maxwell to uncover the truth. Willow is strong and independent, loyal and kind-hearted.

Ralph Maxwell: Aged 13. Brown curly hair, sturdy build. Outdoorsy. The youngest of the group, Ralph is a loner at the start of the book. He lives in the caravan park with his young single mother, Charlotte, a widow since his father died in a boating accident when he was just a toddler. Charlotte is a hard worker and loved by the town. The mayor, who employs her, is especially fond of her and Ralph. Ralph is an explorer at heart with a nose for mystery. He has been tracking and recording strange footprints in the town for a while now, and constantly wishes he had a best friend or reliable side-kick. He finds a whole gang of friends when he accidentally gets caught up in the mystery of missing Paddy Finnis. Ralph is sweet-natured, humble and hard-working. He is loyal and brave and develops a crush on Jaime.

Jaime Perry: Aged 14. Short and round with blonde hair and blue eyes, Jaime is the new kid in town. Her new step-father, Mark Aster, owns The Hare and Hound public house and her mother is now pregnant with his child. Mark seems thrilled with his read-made family and is keen for Jaime to explore his beloved town. He adores the valley and looks up to all of the committee members. This adoration puts him on a collision course with his step-daughter when she starts questioning things… Jaime wants to be a reporter and is known for being nosy. When she first arrives in town, she finds herself ridiculed and bullied by the local teen girls, but then spots Jesse being arrested by Sergeant Mayfield. Her curiosity in overdrive, she starts following and snapping photos. This leads her to Paddy and Jesse in the treehouse. Jaime is intelligent, determined. curious and level-headed. She tends to believe there is a rational answer for everything. There is a hell of a story in her new home-town and she is determined to crack it. She is sweet-natured, loyal and fun-loving but can be a bit shy and lacking in confidence.

The Committee:

Mayor Margaret Sumner: Aged, who knows? Tall and slim, athletic build, with silver hair and grey eyes, Margaret cuts an imposing and authoratative figure around town. No-nonsense, practical, single-minded, she always gets her way. She lives up on Hill Fort Farm where she has a perfect view of the town she created. Her roots are very deep and the town is her precious baby. She will do anything to protect it. As head of the committee and mayor of the town, what she says goes. She cannot understand anyone not appreciating the unique beauty and magic of Black Hare Valley. She is cold and manipulative, but occasionally develops a ‘soft spot’ for someone, and tends to like collecting ‘waifs and strays.’ At heart, she is controlling and not to be messed with.

Edward Bishop: Aged? Looks like he is in his late forties. Tall, thin, but with a pot-belly, greasy black hair, bad skin and a hooked nose. The head-master of the local secondary school, Edward Bishop is feared and loathed by the children of the town. He seems to actively enjoy terrorising and humiliating children and has a particular hatred for Jesse Archer. Edward is vain, bitter, vindictive and sly. He is good friends with Sergeant Mayfield but sometimes feels Margaret is too soft on the Archers. He is a proud and long-standing member of the committee and takes his duties very seriously. A dark and dangerous man.

Sergeant Aaron Mayfield: Aged? looks like he is in his late fifties, and built like a bear with white hair, full beard and moustache. Twinkling blue eyes that look full of mirth and joy but inside he is as cold as ice. Around town, he is loved and feared in equal measures. A sly and deceitful man, Mayfield has a penchant for blackmail. He blackmails Jesse Archer to do jobs for him, and camera by camera, he is spying on the entire town. Like Margaret, he enjoys power and control but is far less subtle about it and enjoys brute violence just as much. He has a lust for blood and violence that Edward Bishop sympathises with. It makes Margaret rather uneasy, however. He and Margaret work well together and share a close bond, often acting and feeling like ‘mother and father’ to the town. He loves the town and will do anything to protect it. A proud, calculating and vengeful man, he is capable of anything.

Bob Rowan: looks to be in his late sixties. Black, greying hair. Dresses like a scruffy farmer. A recluse, Bob Rowan is rarely seen around town. He owns almost half of the land and resides on the opposite side of the valley to Margaret, in a farmhouse surrounded by trees and barbed wire. He used to be on the committee but seems to have broken ranks and gone his own way. Is said to have a pathological hatred of children. He has a ancient Holloway, or sunken path on his land, which he refuses anyone access to. Bob lives like a grumpy secretive hermit, close to nature, with little need for human company.

Sylvia Gordon: looks to be in her early thirties. Small, petite, well-groomed and made-up. She has blonde hair styled like a 1950s Hollywood starlet. She dresses in an old-fashioned manner, but exudes sexuality. She teaches piano at the secondary school but despises children. She acts as the committee secretary. She is flirty with most men, but in particular with the vicar, Greg Roberts. She is sly and manipulative by nature and has a dark sense of humour. Not to be trusted, she will stab anyone in the back to get what she wants.

Vicar Gregory Roberts: Looks to be in early forties. Red hair, has a wife and twin daughters in book one, but they mysteriously disappear later on in the series…. Is conducting an extra-marital affair with Sylvia Gordon. Seems to have a strange and unhealthy interest in Willow Harrison’s mum, Lizzie, and can’t seem to keep away from their gift shop. Lizzie always hides when she sees him coming. Seen by most of the townsfolk as an upstanding and Godly man, our heroes soon realise this couldn’t be further from the truth. A proud, vain and petty man, who like most of the committee, is prepared to do anything to protect the town and conceal the truth.

Eugenie Spires: Looks to be in her late sixties. Small, trim, grey hair scraped into a bun, glasses, old-fashioned practical clothes. Eugenie is the town librarian and comes across as a dour, humourless and severe woman. She has a secret habit of stealing pointless items. She is a gossip at heart and is usually twitching the curtains of her home to spy on townsfolk. She is one of life’s great observers and nothing much gets past her. She is loyal to Margaret and the committee in general and thinks those that question them are ungrateful and selfish.

Neville Hewlett: Looks to be in late thirties. A smooth-faced pudgy man with a nervous vibe about him, Neville is the pastoral care worker at the school and also runs various groups at the town community centre. He comes across as friendly and affable, and will seemingly do anything for anyone. A weak-willed anxious man, Neville shies away from conflict and doesn’t like nastiness. He is loyal to Margaret and the committee, however, and as much as he dislikes confrontation, he knows he must always do as he is told. He has a girlfriend called Tahlia who is a barmaid at The Hare and Hound, but he enjoys a secret relationship with teenager, Nathan Cotton.

Iris: Looks to be in late seventies, early eighties. Iris is small but fierce with a halo of white fluffy hair. She dresses in whatever she picks up off the floor, but often it is dungarees, jeans, dresses and boots, woollen jumpers and woollen hats. Iris lives alone as a recluse in the oldest house in town, Black Hare cottage, on the outskirts of town. She is a long-standing member of the committee but seems to despise them all and doesn’t have much to do with them. It is believed that she hates children, even though she had a son who died, who produced a grandson, Nathan, with a local called Sarah-Jane. They try to keep an eye on Iris but she doesn’t think much of them and prefers to be alone. Often called a witch, townsfolk are naturally wary of Iris and tend to gossip about her behind her back. At one with nature and solitude, Iris often vanishes for weeks at a time without a word to anyone. Iris has a dark heart and is a lover of tricks and mischief.

Well, that’s the main characters from book one! Don’t forget to grab your ebook copy while it is still 99p!

Thank you!

Why Black Hare Valley Goes Back and Forth In Time

There are centuries of mystery in this series!

When I first starting writing Black Hare Valley, I had no idea it would become a series. However, by the time I reached the end of the first book, set in 1996, I knew I also had to set one in 1966 to help explain some of the events.

My heroic group of misfit teenagers in the first book are dealing with a missing friend in 1996, but along the way they discover that children have gone missing from Black Hare Valley before, and their own parents were once involved in trying to solve one such case.

In fact, the strange events and missing children occur every thirty years…

Writing the 1966 book was a lot of fun, as I got to go back in time and revisit adult characters from book one when they were teens in the sixties. I think it gives readers an interesting insight into why certain adults in book one behave and live the way they do. It also answers a few of the mysteries along the way.

By the time I got to the end of that book I was thinking about 2026 because thirty years on, my teen characters from 1996 would now be middle-aged and would potentially have children themselves. I wondered what the town would look like by then. Would it be any different? Would children still be going missing on May Day?

So, the series starts in 1996, jumps back to 1966, then jumps forward to 2026. But it doesn’t end there.

My next idea was a diary form book from Jesse Archer’s POV. I don’t want to go into too much detail as it will give you spoilers, but there is a thirty year period where Jesse is essentially cursed and totally alone. I was curious about how he spent those three decades and decided a sporadic diary written by him would provide the answers. It would also answer even more of the mysteries surrounding this strange town.

This therefore means that after the 2026 book, we go back to 1996 to fill in those thirty years…

I honestly thought it was all over with four books but while in the middle of editing and reworking bits of them, another idea hit me. I had one of those really satisfying ‘click’ moments when I realised a fantastic way to end the series and have almost everything explained. (I am also writing a selection of short stories that will fill in even more blanks.)

Book Five, therefore, is also set in 2026, but it makes sense to read it after the diary book. It starts with my heroes thinking they have ‘won’ but in truth, they have no idea what they have unleashed…

Black Hare Valley Book One: 1996 is out this Thursday 25th June (my birthday!) and you can preorder the ebook and/or the paperback on this link: https://books2read.com/u/4EO5DE