Black Hare Valley Chapter Five: “Ralph, Monster Hunter”

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1

Ralph Maxwell is shopping with his mother when the weather changes. The morning had begun with a hesitant blue sky but by lunchtime the clouds had swum in to hang over Black Hare Valley like a petulant threat.

The rain does not bother his young mother, Charlotte, a widow since his father died when he was three years old. Neither of them own a decent raincoat but Charlotte never falters, in fact, she seems to barely notice the rain as it patters down, at first just wetting their hair and faces as they roll their bikes from shop to shop. Between the post office and the chemist, the rain hardens and by the time Charlotte emerges with her prescription, Ralph is soaked through to his t-shirt and shivering. They’re not done yet though.

There’s bacon and eggs to buy from the butchers, bread and crusty cob rolls from the bakery and apples, carrots and potatoes from the grocers. Charlotte, farmhand and stable girl at Hill Fort Farm, is frugal with money and plans their menus on a daily basis. Together they bike around town almost every day, collecting items from her carefully planned list.

Ralph thinks they’re done now. He hopes they are done now. She promised him fish and chips at the end of their route and his stomach is growling in anticipation. He’s also got his whole afternoon mapped out. Charlotte will be up on the farm after lunch, having been offered some extra hours by Mayor Sumner yesterday. Of course, she’d said yes. Charlotte’s life goal is to get them out of the caravan and into one of the small cottages on School or Fort Lane.

Ralph gets it, but not in a big way. The caravan is plenty big enough for the two of them. It’s warm and cosy and it’s the only home he’s ever known. But Charlotte is a grafter, everyone says it. She won’t give up and he supposes he ought to feel proud of her. For some reason, he mostly just feels guilty for existing.

She had him by accident at eighteen. He knows he played no part in it other than accidentally being conceived, but he can’t quite shift the guilt, especially when people tell him (as they often do) how hard his mother works to provide for him, how she works her fingers to the bone to keep a roof over his head or how young she is to be doing it all alone.

It’s also not his fault his father died when he was only three, but still, he feels the guilt about that too. A boating accident is how it’s been explained to him; a freak accident on the lake while he and his mother were still sleeping in the caravan. He sometimes wants to ask his mother more, but she rarely mentions Frankie Maxwell, making Ralph feel he ought not to bring it up. Besides, she’s got her plate full, they all say. A real survivor.

Ralph does his bit. He’s thirteen now and never says no if Mayor Sumner asks him to pick apples or clean up horse manure. When he’s old enough he will get a job and give his mum all of the money so she doesn’t have to work so much.

In the meantime, it’s a cold rainy Wednesday; May Day, no less and Ralph has fish and chips and a solitary afternoon investigation on his mind. His mum comes out of the grocers and shoves a five pound note into his wet hand.

‘I’ve forgotten something,’ she says. ‘We need that cereal you like and I need coffee and conditioner. I forgot to put them on my list. You get your lunch and head home.’ She turns her bike around.

‘What about you?’

‘I’ll grab something later. Be good. Meet me at the park for the May Day thing?’

Ralph stares at her. ‘In this weather! Do I have to?’

Charlotte rolls her eyes but gives in. ‘Okay, I’ll tell Margaret you have a cold. See you later.’

And she’s gone, swinging her soaked denim-clad leg over the saddle and powering back up the high street. Ralph watches her go, blinking as rain water drips from his hair into his eyes. He sees what they see in her: that grit and determination; her hunched shoulders and set expression. Nothing gets in her way and she never complains. An absolute star, Mayor Sumner calls her, an absolute angel.

Ralph sighs and pushes his way into the fish and chip shop. They suddenly don’t seem so inviting. He doesn’t like eating alone. He orders a bag of chips and runs his mind through options for company.

There’s Daryl, who lives two caravans down. He enjoys exploring the woods and the hills and he sort of looks up to Ralph, which is nice. Daryl will go along with any of his suggestions, but Daryl is only nine years old and it’s kind of embarrassing to be seen with him. There’s Franny who lives next door to Daryl. She’s twelve but she’s such a whiner. There’s always something wrong with her. A headache or a stomach ache or a bad case of head lice.

Ralph pays for his food and thinks no. Not today. Shaking his head, Ralph heads home. It’s too late now to rally any troops. He’ll do this alone. As he crosses over High Street and cuts across the fields behind Saint Marks, he regrets not having a decent side-kick. Life would be so much easier and a hell of a lot more fun if he had someone in tow, someone on the same wave length as him. A Scully to his Mulder.

Ralph smiles. His obsession with the X-Files started two years ago when the show first aired on BBC2. To start with, his mother had enjoyed the show far more than him. She’d practically been drooling over FBI Agent Fox Mulder while Ralph had struggled to keep up with the storylines.

But now it is his obsession alone. He likes to think of himself as rebellious and obsessive like Mulder, and while investigating strange phenomena Ralph often talks out loud to an imaginary partner, one who tries to reel his outlandish theories in.

What Ralph really needs is a sidekick. A Scully. Tracking monsters is not a job for a lone man. It gets lonely. Ralph leaves his bike outside the caravan and lets himself inside. He drips all over the floor whilst carefully transferring the shopping and his chips inside. Then he strips off his coat and drapes it over the airer beside the fire. He crouches there to eat his chips and considers his next move while the photograph of his father watches over him from the shelf above.

2

The plaster of Paris he begged from Miss Crow in the art department would surely be dry by now? It had been drying overnight and the rain won’t affect it if it had already set…

He might as well fetch it now, bring it home, catalogue it in his records and add it to the collection. Then? Maybe he will head to the bookshop. Mr Finnis promised he would hold a book on tracking animals for him until he could afford to pay for it. He won’t quite have the money yet but he’s sure Mr Finnis won’t mind letting him look at the book to take some notes. After all, he and his mum are very loyal customers.

Decision made, Ralph slips his wet coat back on, borrows a plastic Tupperware container from the kitchen, leaves a note for his mum and goes back out into the rain. He doesn’t bother with his bike now; where he’s going the land is too rough and it’ll just pick up a puncture.

The sky is a deep grey. Rain falls hard, plastering his hair to his skull. Ralph trudges quickly through wet grass, skirting around the back of the caravan park towards the bottom of Hill Lane. There is no one about. In weather like this, the townsfolk usually scurry home and hunker down. Ralph hears thunder rolling suggestively on the other side of the hills and presses on.

He passes the play-park, where the rain drums noisily against the metal slide and roundabout, and the swings whip back and forth in a sudden, violent squall of rain and wind. It’s like that in the valley, he thinks, grimacing. Sometimes the wind just races through from one side to the other. Sometimes it seems to turn around and race right back. Sometimes it seems to come out of nowhere.

He crosses the bridge over the river and pauses to glance down at the water. Like the weather, it changes fast here. He was wading in this water just yesterday, having scrambled down the bank further back, behind the caravan park, certain he had spotted some strange tracks on the opposite side. If he tried that now, he’d get swept away. The river water looks black in the fading light. It rolls and tumbles at a terrifying speed. Ralph gulps and hurries over the bridge, then walks as fast as he can up Hill Lane. In the end, the tracks had been otter tracks, but he is sure the ones in the woods are something far, far bigger.

He can’t shake the uneasy feeling that the river is watching him back. He passes Lovers Lane and starts the steep incline beyond it. Hill Lane narrows to one track. One either side are ancient gravestones, all unmarked. Many have crumbled to mere piles of mossy stones. Some are cracked down the middle but holding on.

There’s a stillness in the air here. The rain falls, but does so almost soundlessly. Suddenly, Ralph is aware of the sound of his own breathing, his squelching footsteps, maybe even his own heartbeat. Underfoot, the land throbs with a pulse of its own.

As the graves end, Hill Lane continues on up and up towards Hill Fort Farm, where Mayor Margaret Sumner lives with her disabled sister, Hilda. Ralph goes the other way, climbing the hill towards Black Woods. Even in the poor light, under the heavy blanket of rapidly darkening clouds, Ralph can see the maze, surrounded by the black, watchful trees. A scattering of broken graves poke out of the grassy earth like old bones. Ralph passes through them carefully, and skirts around the edge.

It’s not much of a maze these days. No one can get lost in it. There are no hedges or fences to pen you in, just small worn slopes that used to be hills. Sometimes kids from the town use it to race their BMX bikes, skidding and bunny-hopping from one side to the other, churning up the mud and the grass.

Ralph avoids it now though, head bowed, not wanting to look but not knowing why. He sees the line of trees beyond the maze and is momentarily stunned by the darkness. It’s only two o’clock. Yet the fir trees are so dense, so tall, so close together, they almost form a solid impenetrable wall.

In the spaces between the trunks, all Ralph can see are shadows. His plaster-of-Paris is in there somewhere. He hopes he can remember the route. Straight through past the ring of mushrooms, into the trees, alongside the fallen one follow a straight line until he reaches a slope that eases downwards, a muddy patch of earth, another older, rotten fallen tree and there it should be.

Yet when he gets there its gone.

He looks around wildly, cursing under his breath. He is sure this is where he sat and carefully poured the white liquid until it filled every part of the footprint in the mud. The footprint of a beast far bigger than any dog he knows of. There had been other footprints too but this one had been the clearest. He’d asked Miss Crow for the plaster-of-Paris the next day, calling at her home on Taylor Close. She’d been happy to help him out – always keen to encourage an art or science project.

It should be here, he thinks, I left it here. It should be waiting for him, a solid, perfect mould of the strange footprint. Oh damn, thinks Ralph, I should have come earlier… I should have come first thing.

There’s a simple explanation but it’s a disappointing one. Someone else came along and found it. He places his hands on his hips, throws back his head and growls in pure frustration. He can’t add it to the collection now. He can’t show it off at school tomorrow. He can’t solve the mystery, or not yet anyway.

He doesn’t linger. The Black Woods are as eerily silent as the old graves and the neglected maze. Time stops here; it lingers and floats. You feel like you could easily get pulled in. Absorbed somehow. Unwittingly sucked into the earth under a heap of broken gravestones if you stayed still for too long.

3

Ralph hurries on until he reaches the bridge to the Quigley Dairy Farm. Then he follows the fence back down to the river. It’s hammering it down now. The rain pounds into him, driving his head ever lower until he finds the foot bridge on Maze Lane and crosses over.

Thunder booms over the valley. Ralph jumps, swears and laughs at himself. Mulder and Scully wouldn’t be afraid of thunder, he thinks, or dark woods, weird mazes or old graves. They wouldn’t quit either; they’d go back again and again until they cracked it.

Ralph plods through a vast wet field that rolls around the back of the Town Hall, fire station and police station. He trots out onto Station Road, shivering now and longing for the warmth of home. He turns left onto Black Hare Road and quickens his pace until he reaches The Magic Of Books. Ralph pushes his way inside then stands on the mat, arms outstretched as rivers of rainwater fall from him to the floor.

‘Oh, Ralph!’ Mr Finnis hurries over to him in concern. ‘Goodness, look at you!’

‘I think there’s a storm coming,’ he tells him apologetically. ‘I’m sorry about the floor.’

‘Oh, don’t you worry, come over here and give me that coat, it’s soaked through! I can lend you a raincoat to get home in, you’ll catch your death like that.’

Ralph lets Mr Finnis pull him over to the narrow corridor that leads down to the conservatory.

‘Where’s everyone else?’ he asks, wondering why the shop is so quiet.

‘Oh, they’re in the treehouse!’

‘What? Who is?’ Ralph is confused. Mr Finnis takes his coat and drapes it over a large old radiator. He throws him a towel and he starts to rub at his hair.

‘Paddy and the others. Go on through. Unless you wanted something?’

Ralph knows and likes Paddy but he’s in the year above him at school and they’ve never hung out…

‘I meant the customers,’ Ralph shrugs at Mr Finnis.

‘Oh, they all rushed home at the first crack of thunder. Just the kids are still here. Are you going to join them? Oh hey, I was just about to take this flask of hot chocolate out to them. You can take it for me. Here, swap.’

Mr Finnis presses the flask into his hand, takes the empty Tupperware container and waves him away. Ralph feels a heady mixture of panic and curiosity. Of course, he wants to go to the treehouse, who wouldn’t? He’s heard Paddy and his witchy friend, Willow, talking about it and he’s always been jealous of anyone who has a treehouse. Plus, what did Mr Finnis mean when he said ‘kids’? Paddy and Willow for sure – they’ve been best friends for years, everyone knows that – but he made it sound like there was a whole bunch out there.

He looks back at Mr Finnis because, although excited, Ralph also wants to slow this all down: wants to ask for names, ages and personalities before he ventures out there alone. He wants to take his time and prepare himself. Paddy seems a decent kind of kid but Willow Harrison has always intimidated him. He’s always envied their friendship too; always felt the lack of a best friend as if a bad reflection on him and his personality. Ralph is friendly and gets on with everyone, but he has never had a best friend and it bothers him.

You can’t just rush into these thing unprepared, he wants to tell Paddy’s dad. ‘Uh, do you have any new DVD’s in?’ he asks.

He looks back at him with a shrug. ‘I think so. I’ll have a rummage for you in a minute. And I’ve still got that book aside for you!’

‘Awesome, thanks!’ He searches for something else to ask, something to tell him maybe, some way to postpone venturing out to a treehouse full of unknown children but it’s too late, he’s gone and he can already hear him talking to a customer.

Great. Doesn’t Mr Finnis realise these are not his friends? Why do adults always assume kids all know each other and can just easily get along? I mean, Christ, he thinks, there are some nasty, shitty kids in Black Hare Valley – there are at least five Ralph can think of who he’d not want to be on the same street as, let alone stuck in a treehouse with during a storm. Why does Mr Finnis just assume that whoever is in the treehouse will welcome him?

Fair enough, his son probably will, but everyone knows Willow Harrison can be a real bitch. He supposes at least he can be sure that the awful thuggish trio of Steven, Dominic and Jesse won’t be out there. They’ve been bullying Paddy Finnis for years. No way would Mr Finnis call any of them friends…

4

He’s outside now. He’s in the rain again. He’s wrapped in a towel, holding a flask of hot chocolate. He can’t escape. He has to do this. Okay, what would Mulder and Scully do? Roll on in as cool as fuck and act like they have every right to be there. Okay then. You can do this, Ralph.

He climbs the ladder, clutching the swollen wet rope as it swings in the wind, flask tucked under one arm. He hears shouting, maybe, or laughing? He decides to just roll with it. Fake it until he makes it.

Ralph pops up in the middle of something, holding out the flask and announcing his arrival with the first thing that pops in his head, ‘What’s up, bitches?’

Silence follows. It consumes him. His eyes slowly scan the four faces staring back at him. Paddy. Willow. A new girl? And Jesse Archer… No fucking way. And why the hell did he call them bitches?

‘Oh hey, come on up, Ralph.’ Paddy fills the silence, grabbing the flask and shifting closer to Willow to make room for him.

‘Jesus, there’s no more room,’ Willow grumbles, folding up her long, thin legs.

Ralph hesitates because of Jesse Archer. He doesn’t understand what the boy is doing here. He throws things at people. He doles out wedgies and wet willies in the ear. He steals, lies and cheats. He breaks things just for fun. He once chased Ralph all the way home then threw a barrage of tin cans and glass bottles at the caravan.

Ralph is frozen in fear and confusion until Paddy grabs his arm and hauls him all the way up. ‘Come on, you’re getting wet.’

‘Your dad sent me,’ Ralph says, not tearing his eyes away from Jesse. ‘I don’t know why, sorry. I didn’t mean to gate-crash.’

‘Don’t worry,’ snaps Willow, narrowing her eyes at Jesse as she viciously twirls a damp strand of hair around a long, thin index finger. ‘It’s not a party.’

‘More like an interrogation,’ Jesse mumbles.

‘Or an investigation,’ the new girl says, smiling excitedly.

Ralph meets her eye and smiles back. She’s round and chubby but he thinks she’s pretty too. She smiles at him as if trying to put him at ease and he smiles back, a thank you.

‘An investigation?’ he asks, thinking of his footprint collection. ‘I’m good at those.’

‘I’m Jaime, by the way.’ She thrusts a confident hand at him. ‘I just moved here yesterday.’

‘Ralph,’ he replies, shaking her hand. ‘Nice to meet you.’

‘Thanks, you too!’

There’s an impatient growl from Willow while Paddy unscrews the cap of the flask. ‘Jesse was about to answer a very important question,’ she says, glaring at him.

‘What question?’ asks Ralph, suddenly nervous again as Jesse’s eyes fall on him.

‘Well,’ breathes Jaime. ‘I saw him getting arrested by a policeman earlier. Handcuffed, and everything!’

‘Sergeant Mayfield,’ adds Paddy, eyebrows raised.

‘Because he caught him in the act of trying to blow up the school!’ Jaime relays breathlessly.

‘She followed me,’ grumbles Jesse. ‘Like some kind of stalker.’

Jaime ignores him. ‘I took photos and everything,’ she says proudly. ‘I want to be a journalist when I grow up. You might as well start practicing young, right?’

‘I totally agree,’ Ralph grins. He’s really starting to like this girl. There is a warm and exuberant vibe about her. She’s like a big friendly hug. He starts to imagine her as a female investigator. A sidekick. A Scully. Suddenly, Ralph really wants to tell them all about the giant footprint he tried to record… He opens his mouth to start but Willow jumps in first.

Her voice is firm and hard, commanding you to listen. A deep serious voice that seems a little out of place on such a wispy frame. She glares.

‘Never mind all that, Nancy Drew. We were talking about Jesse.’ She spits out his name as if it offends her and makes her mouth taste bad. Jaime has instantly shut up, zipping her lips together and leaning forward with the others to stare intently at Jesse Archer. Ralph does the same.

‘Nothing,’ Jesse says, answering a question Ralph was not there to hear. ‘I told you, nothing.’

Ralph thinks the boy seems different. He’s not the sneering, hard-eyed boy who stuck his foot out and sent Ralph sprawling with his dinner tray in the school canteen. He seems somehow smaller here, thinner. He’s as wet as the rest of them but looks somehow drowned; his face grey and drawn, purple shadows standing out under each eye. He looks younger even though he is older than all of them.

‘Don’t buy it.’ Willow shakes her head. ‘You don’t get off with a slapped wrist and a warning for trying to blow up the school.’

‘He’ll tell my dad,’ shrugs Jesse.

‘He won’t care,’ Willow states. ‘He’s a criminal.’

Jaime gasps and Ralph holds his breath but Jesse’s expression does not change. If anything, he looks even smaller.

‘He didn’t get any evidence. So, it was just for trespassing.’ He looks at Willow, a little light returning to his eyes. ‘That’s all. Just a warning for trespass.’

There is silence while everyone mulls it over. Ralph looks to Willow, but she’s quiet – her eyes fixed on Jesse’s. He looks away. Down. Then up. Above her head. Her eyes narrow.

‘Then you’re a liar.’

‘What?’

‘You lied to Paddy. You weren’t trying to avenge what Bishop did. You came here to bully him like always.’

‘No, I was gonna burn it down. I was!’

‘None of this matters!’ Paddy says finally, passing the warm flask to Jesse, who takes it with a look of genuine surprise on his face, then hugs it to his wet chest. ‘Nothing happened. School is still there. We’ll all be back there tomorrow. But maybe now, we can all be friends?’

Ralph thinks this is the best thing he’s ever heard. He grins and Jaime quickly fist-bumps him. Willow groans.

Jesse passes the flask back to Paddy and gets up suddenly, wobbling slightly on weak legs above them.

‘Going home,’ he mutters and steps over their wet legs.

No one stops him. Paddy reaches out but his hand grasps at thin air. Jesse climbs down and is gone.

‘He’s hiding something,’ Willow claims.

Jaime squeezes Ralph’s knee. ‘I say we find out what it is!’

Thanks for reading!

Please feel free to leave a comment letting me know what you thought of this latest chapter. What do you think is going on between Sergeant Mayfield and Jesse Archer?

NOTE: Please remember this is NOT the finished version of Black Hare Valley Book 1. This book has not been to my editor yet or even my beta readers. There will be typos, grammatical mistakes, and sentences that need rewriting.

COMING NEXT THURSDAY: Chapter Six: “School Days”

The View From Here Is A Good One

Freewriting from prompt…

oak that watches over our house – image is mine

I only need to look up to see greenery, trees, shielding me. The view from here is my favourite oak, taller than the house and so grand it hurts. How many hundreds of years has it stood on this lane watching over this place? My place. Our place. The view from here is the sycamore and the poplar. I got worried when its leaves didn’t come back as fast as the others, but maybe poplars just take their time. The view from here is the bridge over the river, where the willows weep beside ash and elm and alder. The view from here reminds me how lucky I am, though none of this is truly mine, it is. It is. 

I only need to wander to the back windows to look out on something close to glory. Something close to perfect. Something that feeds my soul in a way that nothing else can. The view from here is a garden full of trees and shrubs and flowers, where chickens peck and the dogs bury bones, and the old tire swings from the fir tree, still going strong after fifteen years. Where the horses in the field snort and graze, where the deer trot furtively from the woods as the sunlight fades. The view from here is sunsets and early morning mist. The view from here is lapwings and buzzards and red kites and badgers and foxes. The view from here is safe, for now.

The view from here makes me dizzy, when the memories rush in, one here, one there, a little boy with socks on his hands pulling a funny face, being rolled down the hill in a tire, being buried in a hole, little baby jabbing at a mud hole with a stick, little girl firing arrows to be like Katniss, little girl and her little chicks cupped in her little hands, and bbqs and trampolining and drinking cider while the sun goes down on us all, and firepits and marshmallows and games of football and tennis and tag and when it was lockdown we made the garden our outdoor gym, and jumped from log to log, twirled and spun and laughed at our own rules, and threw eggs out of the window in a parachute that didn’t work and looked out of the windows at the still silent world.

And that was then. And this is now. And we are still here.

The view from here grounds me. Reminds me: who I am, who we are, what we did, who we loved, how we lived. The view from here changes with the seasons, and in the autumn the garden is covered in leaves, and in the winter the ground is crunchy with frost, and in the spring the green is creeping back to shield us, and in the summer the grass dries out and the sun never seems to go to bed…

The view from here is good.

The view from here is us.

Black Hare Valley: Chapter Four “Willow Watches”

Rough sketch of Willow – image is mine

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1

Willow Harrison knows exactly who the strange girl at the window is. In a small town like Black Hare Valley, any news is big news and her parents have told her all about Mark Aster returning to Black Hare Valley to reclaim the Hare and Hound pub after his father, Clive, passed away.

It was no secret that they never got along and that Clive Aster never forgave his only son for not marrying or reproducing. Who had the last laugh, Willow wonders now, staring at the girl’s moonbeam face. Mark Aster now has a wife, a step-daughter and a baby of his own on the way. Nice work, she concedes, and just look at that poor soul. Not a clue…

The girl seems frozen. Her face is a mask of panic, embarrassment and possibly hope. If she thinks Willow is going to move from her cosy spot behind the counter, she has another thing coming. Willow glares at her, wishing her away.

Suddenly, the girl turns, her attention averted by the clatter and chatter of two girls leaving Milly’s Café next door. Now Willow’s mood shifts. When she sees it’s the abhorrent Alexa Bradley and Bryony Duggan, she feels a surge of pity for the new girl. The inanely grinning, chubby-faced, mud-splattered new girl. A long sigh escapes her lips and she pushes back her hair before slinking out from behind the till and approaching the window in wonder.

It’s a bit like watching a rabbit caught in the headlights of an oncoming car. The perfect teenage girls versus the inadequate and desperate to please new specimen, who Willow can tell from even such a brief view, is not the kind of girl Alexa and Bryony would give the time of day to in a million years.

She watches in absolute horror as the new girl offers them her hand to shake…

Oh God, no.

The perfect girls titter and giggle. They say something that causes the new girl’s smile to wither and fade. Then they skirt around her like they are avoiding dog shit on the pavement. Willow watches. The girl sags, then makes a snap decision to bundle hurriedly across the road and divert almost blindly down School Lane.

‘Where they will return to eat you alive…’ Willow murmurs to herself. ‘Leaving only bones,’ she adds as she turns away.

The door opens and the bell jingles and Willow half-expects the girl to be back, but no, it’s the vicar, Gregory Roberts.

Oh, Christ.

Won’t he ever give up?

‘Good afternoon, Miss Harrison!’ he declares in the same booming and authoritative voice he uses with his congregation at Saint Marks church.

‘Afternoon, Vicar,’ she returns evenly, her face expressionless.

‘Wet out there,’ he says rather pointlessly as he aims his folded umbrella at the floor and gives it a vigorous shake. Willow watches the rainwater spraying across the shop, peppering the books and gifts with droplets. ‘But don’t you worry, the May Queen will still be crowned!’ He flashes her a toothy smile. ‘It will just be inside a rather large tent.’

‘I wasn’t worried.’

He ignores the comment as he takes off his glasses to rub them dry on the inside of his coat. His red hair is thinning on top so he keeps it very short and neat. He is always clean shaven and is remarkably unwrinkled for a man of forty-eight. His skin has a loose, smooth quality to it. He is a portly man with a chin that blends into his neck and he is rarely seen without a sheen of perspiration on his smooth forehead.

‘What a shame you have to work!’ he goes on. ‘Mind you, I suspect it will be a smaller crowd than usual, what with the weather and everything. It really is blowing up a storm out there!’

‘Yes,’ Willow agrees, her voice soft as she glances at the window and the soaked town beyond it. ‘It is. How can I help you?’ She heads back to the counter, the new girl entirely forgotten.

Vicar Roberts looks around the gift shop and laughs out loud. Evidently, he has no idea how offensive he can be at times. Willow rolls her eyes, plonks herself down on the stool and picks up her book.

‘Oh no, no no,’ he says, not moving from the door. He rarely comes in any further, as if slightly afraid of the place. ‘I was just passing.’

Of course you were, she thinks.

‘Popping next door for a cream tea, actually,’ he goes on. ‘Plus I’m spreading the word about the marquees they’ve been erecting in the park. We don’t want people missing out on the celebrations just because of the rain. Oh, it was lovely this morning though!’ he tells her. ‘Isn’t it funny how it can change like that?’ He laughs as if it is all a great joke and Willow stares down at the pages of her book, wishing he would just leave. ‘Are your parents in? I was hoping to talk to them again about the neighbourhood watch committee.’

‘They’re a bit busy right now,’ Willow sighs, ‘but I’ll pass on the message.’

‘Oh. Okay. Right then.’ The vicar frowns and for a moment his lower lip protrudes like a sulky child. ‘And your mum is all right?’ he adds as an afterthought, although it can’t be, not really. He asks every time he comes in and Willows mother nearly always hides from him.

‘Yes, she’s fine.’ It’s always the same, Willow thinks in frustration, he just never gives up. He shifts slightly towards the door, umbrella in hand, but she can tell he hates to leave without getting what he wanted.

Go, please, just go.

‘Oh,’ he says then. ‘You will tell them about the marquees, won’t you? I really don’t want the weather putting people off. May Day is such an important event in the calendar.’

Willow releases the tiniest of sighs.

‘Oh, and you could pass on another message if you like.’

She raises her eyebrows and waits.

‘The new people arrived.’

‘Oh yeah.’ She looks back at her book. ‘I know.’

The vicar steps forward again. ‘Oh, you’ve seen them?’

‘Yeah, the girl was out there earlier.’

‘Oh, how lovely! I know the mayor was going to visit them and see if the mother would be interested in joining the committee. I do hope she was successful. Then of course for the girl there’s Sunday School, the Youth Choir…’

‘I’ll tell them,’ Willow cuts him off with a tight smile.

The vicar Roberts looks at her for a moment and Willow stares back at him. She keeps her expression as blank as possible. His smile is still there but its weaker now, his congregation cheer frozen. Willow waits.

He opens the door. ‘As you were.’

‘Goodbye, Vicar.’

He leaves. She watches him outside, putting the umbrella back up, flicking up the collar of his raincoat. He waits for a moment, as if gathering himself together. Then finally he strides away and out of sight.

‘Fuck you,’ Willow says, putting down her book. ‘Mum?’

‘Is he gone?’

‘He’s gone.’

Her mother’s pale face appears around the door to the stock room. She wears her dark hair long like her daughter’s and her slim frame is enveloped in a paint-splattered old shirt. She gently twists the ring through her nose and sighs wearily.

‘Well, thank goodness. D’you know, some things never change? I used to hide from him as a kid. Now all these years later I’m doing it again.’

Willow opens her mouth to ask what her mother means, but promptly changes her mind. She does not need to know. As much as she loves and appreciates her parents, Willow is not particularly interested in what they were like at her age, what they did, where they went. It might be the same town, she often wants to tell them, but it’s the 90s now, not the 60s. It’s different.

She checks her mother’s expression and demeanour though; she can’t not. Willow has learnt to spot the signs. Sometimes she thinks her mother’s depression is like a sleepless monster that lives inside of her. It claws her away from time to time, making her bleed. But she seems okay at the moment. So there is hope.

Her mother waves a hand at her. ‘Darling, you can go. I’ll take over. Not that we’ll get much custom in this weather.’

Willow does not need to be told twice. She grabs her own raincoat from the hook next to the door and zips it up over her black clothes.

‘I’m going to Paddy’s.’

‘Thought so.’

2

Willow slips out. The coast is clear. She can hear roars of laughter from the cafe as the vicar’s repertoire is eagerly received by Milly and all the other old women.

Willow crosses the road, holding onto her hood. The streets are deserted. As she cuts down School Lane, she sees someone up ahead. A bright blue anorak and duck yellow wellington boots. It’s the new girl. Willow slows, reluctant to bump into her. The rain is harder now but if she walks too fast she will easily catch up with the girl.

Part of her thinks, well, so what? Maybe I’ll say hi. Maybe I’ll tell her not to give a fuck about Alexa and Bryony. But part of her doesn’t want to be anywhere near this new girl. Her desperation was just too tragic. Willow is not good at sympathy and struggles with empathy too. She knows she won’t be any good for the new girl, so what would the point be?

She thinks about Paddy and their ongoing story and her mind is made up. The Tale of Dirty Feet and Esme is a story they have been writing together for almost a year now and the lure of another chapter is too important. The idea was born on a lazy July afternoon last summer when they were lying behind the old ruins that overlook Bob Rowan’s land. They were watching hares, she remembers, when fascinated and amused by their antics, they started to give them all names. Dirty Feet was the biggest boy and Esme was the smallest girl and together they got up to the most mischief. Before they knew it they had planned a story where the hares could talk and dream and plan just like humans.

Willow is normally a private writer. She doesn’t even hand her best work in at school. She thinks writing is a way to both make sense of life and endure it. In her darkest moments, she scrawls angry poems in notebooks she keeps stuffed under her mattress. In her darkest moments, Willow feels a bright hungry fear that she is turning into her mother.

Their story took them over last summer, Willow remembers now, with each of them injecting ideas and dreaming up adventures for the two hares. They had started to take turns to write it down and it had been a surprise to Willow to realise she could share both her writing and her ideas. It had never been just her story. It had always been Paddy’s too, and it still was. Paddy’s father had promised he would lend them his typewriter to type it up when it was finished. He would place it in the bookshop, he said, pride of place. The last time they’d worked on it, Paddy had been adamant he wanted to find a way to send the hares to space and Willow had hated the idea. It’s not a sci-fi story, she had insisted and he had winked at her.

The girl is suddenly moving faster. She’s almost running, which seems stranger. She goes out of sight, onto Black Hare Road. Maybe she’s really upset, Willow considers, picking her pace up a little. But if she is, why not just go home?

And if the girl is upset, so what? What can Willow do about it? Absolutely fuck all.

Unlike Jesse Archer, Willow has a healthy respect and even a grouchy sort of love for Black Hare Valley. It’s never quite turned on her the way it has Jesse. As she scuttles along its rain washed streets she feels a sense of it cleansing itself when it has to. She catches glimpses of the hills on either side of the valley – a vibration of their foreboding, patience and longevity fills the town and as always, she pictures Dirty Feet and Esme dancing across the hills.

Willow, along with Paddy, has mastered the art of courteous exploration – spending their childhoods playing in the woods, paddling in streams and rolling down hills. They’ve pretended to be kings and queens, cops and robbers, witches and dragons and everything else in between for years. They’ve even snuck into the Holloway, made dens in it, clambered up its earthy claggy walls and left their footprints in the clay and mud. The Holloway, of course, is where Dirty Feet and Esme live.

The town has been their playground and as Mayor Sumner likes to say so often, it really does have everything they need. Willow supposes it depends to some degree what you need, but her and Paddy have been well provided for: hours of dipping feet in dappled water, resting on smooth pebbles while frogspawn floats, dragonflies hover and newts bask in the sun; day long games in the woods, hiding from the world, just them and their make-believe worlds; weeks of tracking and recording the natural world as it is permitted to thrive boastfully in Black Hare Valley; promising themselves that they’ll be able to finally see a legendary black hare but feeling equally satisfied and entranced with the brown hares they glimpse from time to time.

Willow and Paddy have been watched and watched over by deer, foxes, badgers, rabbits, buzzards, sparrowhawks … And if she feels watched over by anyone its by Vicar Gregory Roberts – but that’s because he is one of those religious types who thinks it’s his life’s duty to convert everyone else.

3

Willow passes the school. The clouds are moving fast, swollen with black rain. It feels suddenly much later, almost evening. There’s a chill around her legs and a cold wind blasts around the corner, forcing her to recoil.

She bows her head and moves faster. She stops at Black Hare Road and scans the area. There is no sign of the new girl. Maybe she ducked into a shop to escape the downpour. Willow shrugs to herself. She crosses over, still checking around just in case.

The Hardware and Pets store is closed. The bookshop is open – maybe she went in there? She looks like the bookish type… Willow pulls open the door and goes insides, immediately soothed by the familiar and comforting smell of dusty warmth and the residue of hazy sunshine. The bookshop shields her from the brewing storm.

It’s like a separate entity frozen in time. The pace is lighter here, slower, calmer. In here, you lose time. She can see quietly bowed heads wandering in every aisle and she can hear the delicate rustle of old pages being turned. She focuses on the threadbare carpet and imagines Dirty Feet and Esme padding gently across it to hide behind bookshelves.

She drifts through, calmer now, inhaling the smell of a million stories. Paddy’s dad is at the counter, and looks up from a book to smile warmly at Willow. Paddy’s father looks exactly how she imagines Paddy will when he’s a man. Marvin Finnis is thin and tall and wears glasses like his son. He gives off a gentle, old-fashioned vibe, she thinks, in his knitted cardigans and soft corduroy trousers. She cannot imagine him in jeans and a t-shirt.

‘Oh Willow, go on through. They’re in the treehouse.’

They?’

So, the new girl did come in here then? Did Paddy see her, maybe? It would be just like him to spot a girl in distress and offer her shelter and comfort. Willow can see how that would have happened. She feels a stab of jealousy and hopes he is not telling the new girl about their story.

‘Yes, Jesse came in again.’

Willow’s mouth snaps shut. Her hands clench. She swallows and moves stiffly away.

‘Okay, thanks Mr Finnis.’

Fucking Jesse Archer! The absolute shit. Willow storms through to the conservatory, while the rain drums relentlessly on the thin glass and outside the sky is almost black. What the hell is the malignant creep playing at? Did he really feel so humiliated by that bloody stupid assembly that he’s still taking his rage out on Paddy, who, he obviously fails to realise, was equally as humiliated?

‘God’s sake,’ she huffs, yanking open the door. Jesse Archer is a manipulative, lying, thieving little shit. He’s taking the piss out of you; she has tried to warn Paddy over the last six weeks. She has warned him more than once that he cannot trust an Archer.

But he doesn’t seem to get it. His soft, sweet heart malleable like putty. His intention to see the same honesty and integrity in others as he strives for in himself. It’s partly his dad’s fault, she concedes, the man is obsessed with giving people second chances. He seems to think Jesse’s father Nick had a bad time as a kid and as a result has passed that on to his own son. Not entirely sure what he means, Willow also doesn’t care. In her opinion, having a shit dad is not an excuse to be shitty to everyone else.

Willow scurries through the rain to the treehouse. Lightning flashes across the sky and thunder cracks as she clings to the ladder and makes her way up. She clambers into the shelter and for a moment is lost for words. Just then another roll of thunder crashes above them and the four teenagers all cringe at the same time.

Willow eyes the new girl distrustfully but it does make sense that she ran in here to shelter from the rain and Paddy welcomed her into his treehouse, because that’s how he is.  Mr Finnis loves a stray and no doubt rounded her up and made sure Paddy looked after her.

It’s Jesse Archer that Willow really glares at. Why is he sat there like that, like he owns the place? It instantly enrages her. He walks around school and town like he owns the world; can’t they at least have one place that is sacred and safe? And why is he sat between Paddy and the new girl like he’s some kind of leader, just because he’s older and taller? Why were they having such an animated conversation without her? And why do Jesse’s eyes keep tracking to a spot in the pallet roof?

She scowls as Paddy helps her in. ‘This is my best friend, Willow,’ he tells the new girl.

New girl does that hand thing again – almost taking Willow’s eyes out. She jerks away from it, still scowling.

‘Jaime.’

‘Okay.’ Willow looks at Paddy. ‘What the hell, Paddy?’

He shrugs but he’s smiling. Of course, he’s happy to have these strange intruders in their treehouse, invading their hideout. He’s always enjoyed teasing Willow about how unsociable she is. She supposes he thinks this is funny.

‘Everything happened at once!’ he tells her.

Jaime lowers her hand, her bottom lip pulled in by her teeth. ‘I saw you in the gift shop.’

‘Yeah, I work there.’

‘Her parents own it,’ Paddy adds.

‘Oh cool!’ Jaime brightens again. She doesn’t seem to stay down for long… ‘It’s so cool that all our parents own businesses here!’

Willow frowns – is this kid simple? She really does look delighted with this pointless fact.

‘My mum is married to Mark and we’ve just taken over the Hare and Hound,’ she goes on, as if they didn’t all know that already. ‘And obviously Paddy lives above the bookshop. How cool is that? What about you, Jesse? Where do you live? What do your parents do?’

All eyes turn to Jesse and Willow smirks, enjoying his obvious discomfort.

‘Yeah,’ she says. ‘Tell her where you live, Jesse. Tell her about your parents.’

His jaw tightens and his expression sours under their persistent gaze. His arms are wrapped tightly around his wet jeans and Willow watches his fingers clasp together tightly, as if holding on.

‘Why all the questions?’ he mutters.

‘Here’s another one for you,’ says Willow. ‘Why are you even here and why won’t you leave Paddy alone and stop whatever this long-winded plot to humiliate him is?’

‘What?’ Jesse blinks at her.

‘You know what I’m talking about!’

‘No, I fucking don’t!’

‘Willow -’

‘No Paddy, I’m serious. Ever since that stupid assembly he keeps showing up here latching onto you. What for? He can’t really want to be friends. He’s up to something!’

‘Willow, come on…’ Paddy lays a hand on her arm but she shakes it off.

Her penetrating glare remains on Jesse. He tries to meet her gaze and hold it, but he can’t. His eyes are shooting all over the place. Guilty conscience, she thinks.

‘Maybe I do want to be friends…’ he says, his eyes meeting Paddy’s.

Paddy smiles while Willow growls.

‘You’re his fucking bully! Bully!’

‘Willow,’ Paddy tries again. ‘Seriously, you can’t be so cynical your whole life. He hasn’t done anything to me, I swear.’

Willow looks at Paddy in disgust. ‘Yeah, and you can’t be so trusting… I know he’s up to something. He’s always up to something!’

‘He just tried to blow up the school!’ Jaime pipes up excitedly.

They all look at her. Her blue eyes are wide, her small thin lips pulled into a huge smile. Willow can’t work her out. She looks like someone who just won the jackpot.

‘That’s what we were just talking about.’ Paddy turns to Willow. ‘See? Jesse tried to avenge us. Tried to get back at Bishop.’

Willow shakes her head; she can barely believe what she is hearing. ‘Are you actually serious?’

They all nod. Jaime is grinning like a loon, while Paddy’s eyebrows are arched as if suggesting this act of insanity proves his point somehow, and Jesse is just glaring back at her like; yeah, so what?

‘You tried to blow up our school? Are you fucking stupid?’ She holds up a hand. ‘No, don’t answer that. I know you are.’

‘The policeman caught him in the act,’ Jaime witters on. ‘I got photos and everything.’

Jesse looks away – his lips are moving but nothing is coming out.

Willow leans forward. ‘What do you mean, you got photos? Of what?’

Jaime looks hesitant but then unzips her anorak to reveal the camera. ‘I got this for my last birthday,’ she says. ‘Do you know anywhere I can develop the film?’

Willow throws up her hands aggressively. ‘Why are you wandering around taking goddamn photos of people? That’s not gonna make you any friends, you know!’

Jaime zips it back up. ‘I’m a reporter.’

‘She wants to be…’ Jesse murmurs.

‘She’s just curious,’ Paddy says, helping her out. ‘I think it’s an admirable quality.’

Willow elbows him. ‘You would.’

Jaime looks at her lap. ‘It’s my ambition, that’s all. I get a bit carried away sometimes.’ Her gaze shifts to Jesse, and Willow, watching, sees her eyes glaze over a little, her lower lip droop. Oh God, no. ‘I won’t do anything with them,’ she tells him quietly. ‘I promise.’

‘You’re not gonna blackmail him?’ Willow asks. ‘Well, that is disappointing.’

‘I’m not gonna do anything,’ Jaime says, her eyes still on Jesse, who is doing the shifty eye thing again, trying like hell not to make eye contact with any of them. What is he up to?

‘You’re not gonna write a story or anything?’ he finally asks, glancing just briefly at Jaime.

She beams back at him. ‘No! Of course not. Not now I’ve met you.’

‘You should probably give him the photos when you develop them,’ Paddy suggests, ever the voice of reason and fairness. ‘That’d be the right thing to do. He won’t want his dad seeing anything like that.’

‘My dad won’t care,’ Jesse snorts, his top lip raising.

Willow snorts back in agreement. ‘His dad is a bigger criminal than he is.’

‘But what about the policeman?’ Jaime looks bewildered, staring at them each in turn. ‘Won’t he tell someone? Won’t he tell your dad?’

Suddenly, all eyes are back on Jesse and Willow can tell that he hates it. He opens his mouth then thinks twice and closes it again. He shifts his backside and glances at the door. Willow can sense his desire to escape. More than anything right now she can feel how much he wants to just run. He gulps. His panic reeks. For the first time, Willow is genuinely curious about this boy. What is he so panicked about? What is he hiding?

‘Maybe he let you off with a warning?’ Jaime suggests for him. ‘Police can be like that sometimes. Like, maybe he wanted to give you a second chance.’

‘Yeah, right,’ Jesse sighs, eyes down. He pulls at a strip of rubber coming loose from the soles of his fake Nike trainers.

‘Well, what then?’ Willow demands. ‘Truth time. Who was it, Mayfield? I bet it was Mayfield.’ Jesse nods reluctantly, not meeting her eye. ‘What, he just catches you trying to burn down the school and lets you off with a warning? No way. I’m not buying that.’

‘Does seem kind of strange,’ admits Paddy.

‘Very strange,’ Willow goes on. ‘Tell us what you saw, Jaime. Did Mayfield even take Jesse home?’

‘I don’t know where he lives, but no. He just drove him here and let him out.’

‘He lives in the scuzzy flats on Taylor Drive,’ Willow says, not taking her eyes off Jesse. ‘So, what else?’

‘He was in handcuffs.’

Jesse’s face burns.

Handcuffs?’ Willow inhales, her eyes stern. ‘Well, well, well. You better start talking, Jesse Archer. What the hell is going on between you and Sergeant Mayfield?

Thanks for reading!

Please feel free to leave a comment letting me know what you thought of this latest chapter. Who is your favourite character so far? What are your thoughts on the town?

NOTE: Please remember this is NOT the finished version of Black Hare Valley Book 1. This book has not been to my editor yet or even my beta readers. There will be typos, grammatical mistakes, and sentences that need rewriting.

COMING NEXT THURSDAY: Chapter Five “Ralph – Monster Hunter”

Night Night Tinks

You were the best girl ever…

Tinks just before the end – image is mine

Of course, we knew it was coming. Of course we had seen her slow down. As she turned 14 in February, I celebrated the fact she was the oldest dog I’d ever had! My last two died at aged 10 due to heart failure, and aged 13 after a stroke. But at 14, she was still going, still clicking about on her increasingly weak and wobbly legs, still emitting her strange high-pitched woof every time she wanted something, still causing no trouble, still being the sweetest, gentlest girl ever…

In April I celebrated again. Fourteen years had passed since I agreed to squeeze in an extra foster dog, and had this tiny mucky little scrap of a thing handed over the garden gate to me. Already named Tinkerbelle, I stuck her in the sink for her first bath. She settled in like she owned the place; always calm, sweet, and optimistic, even as a tiny pup.

No one phoned up for her, there was no interest in this smooth coated brindle lurcher pup at all and then one day she managed to climb up onto the kitchen side to try and reach some food. She fell off and broke her back leg. This, of course, meant an extended foster stay with us, during which numerous other rescue dogs came and went to their new homes. On the day someone finally phoned up to ask about her, I knew I could not let her go. She was ours. She had been with us for too long and there was no way we could give her up now.

Tinks as a puppy with her broken leg in a cast – image is mine

Tinks was the perfect puppy. While still in a cast, she slept every night in a crate to keep her as still as possible and she never complained. Once her cast came off, she could start going for walks but was still happy to sleep downstairs every night. She rarely peed in the house, rarely nipped anyone as a small pup, and although not particularly interested in training or tricks, Tinkerbelle always had reliable recall and always greeted other dogs politely and sensibly. And as the months wore on, her smooth brindle coat grew long and fluffy!

Tinks – first walk without her cast on! Image is mine

We were so, so lucky.

As the years went by, Tinks only got easier. I have never had such an easy dog. She was vocal when she wanted to be, but only ever out of excitement. She never jumped up at anyone, never stole food, never destroyed anything. She was so happy-go-lucky, so laidback. I always said it was like she lived in her own little world, and she did. A sweet, gentle happy little Tinks world.

Tinks as a puppy – image is mine

At the start of 2020, before the pandemic, we said goodbye to Skipper, another lurcher. He was ten and had suffered with heart failure for the last year of his life. He was a great companion for Tinks – they truly loved eachother and when he was put to sleep at home, she was there too. As I leaned over him, sobbing, she came over, pushed her head up under my arm and forced me to look at her. It was as if she was trying to say, hey, I’m still here!

Not long after Skipper left us, we got Jesse, who is now 5. He gave Tinks a new lease of life, as did Ada when she came along almost three years ago.

me and Tinks – image is mine

It’s really been the last year or so that Tinks started to slow down. Her back legs in particular were getting shakier and weaker, and she had trouble going up and down stairs. She stopped coming out for so many walks and was mostly happy pottering around the garden.

We knew the end was coming and I wanted the end that Skipper had. He was always afraid of the vets and became stressed getting into cars, so we had the vets come out to us. That way he could slip away in the comfort of his own home.

The Sunday before last, Tinks was fine one moment and then I noticed she was panting heavily. It was 6pm and we were watching TV together. She then got up and staggered about on her bed, so I went over to her, as something did not seem right. As I reached her, her legs gave way under her and she collapsed mostly into my arms, but hit her head on the floor. As she went down, her mouth stretched open and she cried out in pain. I thought I was losing her there and then.

We got her comfortable and all gathered around her, crying. She couldn’t seem to move her legs so we gently moved them for her so she was lying on her side. About an hour later she had another similar episode. She got up, staggered about, fell onto my lap and cried out. This time it was worse and she cried and grunted several times and again, I was certain she was going.

She settled down again and I called the emergency vets as I did not want her to suffer. They couldn’t send anyone out at that time but could see her if we drove her in. That would have been difficult, as she was a big dog who couldn’t move by herself at this point. We discussed it but by 9pm she seemed okay again. She had some water and even a few treats. We decided to leave her for the night and see how things were in the morning.

I slept downstairs with her that night. She slept peacefully through and in the morning surprised us all by going outside for a wee! She didn’t want any food though. Meanwhile, I made the appointment for the vets to come out on the Wednesday, as it was clear we couldn’t let this go on much longer. It gave us a few more days with her and I was thankful for that, but also anxious in case she had another episode. I just didn’t want her to suffer at all.

Thankfully she made it to Wednesday. She did not eat any dog food, just the odd treat and a tiny bit of cake I shared with her. She drank water but was otherwise uninterested in food. She slept peacefully most of the time and we all tried to spend as much time with her as we could.

Wednesday arrived. My busiest work day, but to be honest, I was glad of the distraction. I ran a few Zoom clubs in the morning then the vets arrived at 12.30pm. It was all over very quickly and very peacefully. She was so tired, so weak, so ready to go. My teenage son was here and he was wonderful. We buried her in the garden next to Skipper on the other side of the cherry tree.

Mostly, I feel relief. Life was getting harder for her, and I really wanted to avoid a stressful or painful death. She deserved the best end and I think that’s what she got. No more suffering, no more pain, no more feeling tired or weak.

And now, we miss her.

We realise how special she was, how sweet she was, how easy she was. She never demanded anything of anyone, that’s the thing I keep coming back to. She was the least demanding dog I’ve ever had. The simplest. The gentlest. The easiest.

Fourteen years is a long time for a dog to be part of your life and your family. Though we have the younger two to keep us busy, there is a Tink shaped hole in everything now.

But what I keep coming back to is how lucky we were to have her. From an extra foster dog I didn’t know I was getting, to the broken leg meaning her foster stay was prolonged, to having her as part of our lives for so very long, I feel lucky.

Night night sweet Tinks.

Thank you for being the best girl ever.