I’ve been active on Medium now since 2023 and active on Substack for over a year. My trusty and much loved blog here on WordPress has been going since I started my writing and publishing journey back in 2012 or therearebouts! Since I published my debut novel The Mess Of Me in 2013 I have gone on to publish a total of 23 books, if you count The Dark Finds You which is out next month.
It was all a learning curve in the beginning and it’s true to say I actively hated a lot of it. I just wanted to be writing. Fast forward through the years and I started to get used to it and eventually, even enjoy it. And then of course the landscape shifted – again and again and again – and like all independent authors on a low budget, I’ve had to shift and adapt with it each time.
What I do now is try new things, give them some time and then assess what is working and what is not. After all, no one wants to spend their entire lives on social media and these books have got to be written somehow! With all that in mind I thought I’d do a little recap on what has been working for me, as well as what I am thinking of trying in the future!
The first thing to mention is that my sales are up. Reviews are still very hard to come by, but I get sales from Amazon and from Draft 2 Digital (who distribute both ebooks and paperbacks to everywhere else) every month and in the last year or so, those sales have improved. Now, I am nowhere near being able to pay the rent! Nowhere close! But I do get a nice surprise most months, a little ‘oh!’ moment when my royalties show up. Funnily enough, most of my royalties are coming from Draft 2 Digital distributors, not Amazon!
Let’s start with social media.
Facebook and Instagram: I am still not as active as I probably should be, but whatever I am doing there for free does seem to be fetching me sales. I have 424 followers on Instagram which is linked to my Facebook author page where I have around 1,500 followers. I post daily life pictures and videos such as dog walks in my favourite places, gardening and baking pictures and writing updates. I post review graphics of all my books as much as I can, and quote graphics too, all with buy links and blurbs attached with the relevant hashtags. What I’ve done differently this year is use music! I caught on late and who knows what difference it makes, but it is fun picking songs to go with your pictures and reels. I try to repost and share my Substack and Medium posts to Instagram and Facebook too but not as much as I should.
What I want to try in 2026: I want to try posting more videos of me talking. Scary, I know, but a lot of the time it would actually be quicker to record myself saying or doing something and post that to several places. I particularly want to try this with my Chasing Driftwood Writing Group social media platforms and blog. I work with young writers running clubs on Zoom and in schools, but I often worry about the young writers I can’t reach. There is only one me and I can’t run any more clubs than I already do. I already post a weekly round-up of what the kids have been up to on my Chasing Driftwood Writing Group blog and Facebook page, but I was thinking of changing that to a video where I could go into a bit more detail. It might be useful for writers who can’t access clubs and workshops, and I could cross post it to lots of places. I’m unsure at the moment, but it could potentially be more effective as well as a time-saver!
Medium: It’s been up and down over on Medium but I do try and publish pieces there at least once a week. Essays, poems and short stories mostly. I am still running my tiny little publication The Wild Writers Club but constantly wondering if it is worth it! I have been boosted a few times lately and while two of them didn’t earn as much as I would have liked, one did hit the sweet spot and earned me over £200 just in time for Christmas! I was thrilled. Funnily enough, although I was only responding to a writing prompt about revolution, it was the most political piece I have ever shared there, so maybe I should do that more often? Anyway, it continues to be worth it, so I will stick around for the forseeable future. One new thing I have been doing is sharing links to my Medium pieces to my Substack weekly round-up post. I share the Medium member link and the free friends link to cover everyone.
What I want to try in 2026: I need to remember to share my Medium pieces in more places, such as Instagram and Facebook as well as Substack. Chances are the same people are not following me in all these places, so it makes sense to cross post as much as possible. I also intend to keep up my once a week posting if I can and maybe even up it, but we will see. Maybe I will be brave and share more of my political and social opinions!
Substack: I am not earning anything on Substack, that is the most important thing to point out. I have zero paid subs and I don’t think I am likely to ever get any. I have thought about offering high value content to paid subscribers but it just feels a bit cheap. I’m not sure I have anything to offer that’s worth £5 a month. I just want people to read my books and that’s what I focus on there. Sales have been better this year, so perhaps it is working? I have 139 subscribers there. I post weekly round-ups on a Friday where I share the main news of the week, whether it is writing, work or just life related and I also share what I am reading, watching and listening to. I just enjoy it! It’s fun sharing books and music and TV I love! There is always writing related news too and as I already said, I also post links to my Medium pieces. I also post an end of the month author newsletter, which really just replaces the old useless MailChimp one I used to have. This is always 100% writing related. And up until recently I was serialising Black Hare Valley Book 1 on Substack as well as here.
What I want to try in 2026: I was thinking about adding writing tips and prompts to my weekly round-up but if I go ahead with my weekly video thing for Chasing Driftwood Writing Group, I wouldn’t need to do this. I would link to it. One thing I am definitely doing is adding character POV things to my author newsletter. There is endless content for this! I am going to be handing over a part of the newsletters to one of my characters each month. For example, Danny from The Boy With The Thorn In His Side will share his favourite sad songs, or Bill Robinson from The Holds End Trilogy will share his best ‘fuck you’ songs to sing at a gig. Chess and Reuben from The Day The Earth Turned series will share survival skills, and so on! There will be all sorts from playlists, reading recommendations to life hacks, recipes and philosophical thoughts! I am looking forward to this!
Well, I think that’s everything. As always there are probably a million more things I could be doing to sell books and improve visibility as an independent author, but at the moment I think it’s wise to stick to the things I know and keep building on them. Tweaking things and trying something new every now and then within these platforms also seems to be worth it!
How about you? If you are an author what is working and not working for you at the moment and d you plan to try anything different in 2026? If you are a reader, where are you finding your books at the moment?
I hadn’t quite finished the post I had in mind for today so I’m going to share this short story with you instead. And yes, that does mean the writing is flowing again! More on that next week. I wrote this piece in response to a prompt on Medium, which instructed you to go outside and take a random photo then write a story inspired by it. This graffiti was added recently to one of the poles on the bridge down the lane from us. I thought it made a cool photo and a cool short story prompt so here we go. (This is only a second draft story and I do intend to polish it up a bit more in the future.)
What Happened To Pip Collins? (Working title)
The ghost hunt starts at the little stone bridge, just a ten minute walk down the lane. My older brother Ed photographs the graffiti and starts scribbling in his school notebook while I pluck catkins from the young ash trees and toss them into the shallows.
For a long time, this little note, this graffiti from another time, was the only clue in a missing person’s investigation but three weeks ago, another note was found on the wall of an abandoned mill. The mill is on the other side of the Stour, what we call the ‘big river’ and it was my brother who made the connection to this one. He immediately knew what he was going to do his local history project on: the disappearance of ten-year-old Philip Collins in 1978.
He had a hard time convincing his history teacher but he didn’t give up, arguing that everything that happened in the past is now history and if the boy vanished locally then that makes it local history. For the record, I think he is right about this. Plus, I really want to see a ghost.
Bored of tossing catkins, I indulge in a quick game of pooh sticks, snatching up twigs and throwing them over the mossy bridge, before darting to the opposite side. Ed rolls his eyes and I sense his impatience, but I see no urgency in the putting away of childish things. My first twig gets stuck on the large fallen tree that cuts the shallows in two. My second bobs up and over it, and the third never emerges from under the bridge.
Meanwhile, Ed consults his notes, reading from a newspaper clipping he found online, printed out and stuck into his project book:
‘Ten-year-old Philip Collins, known by his family as ‘Pip’ was last seen leaning over the railings of the small stone bridge on Hurn Court Lane, Hurn Village, Christchurch.’
I drift towards Ed and peer over his shoulder. He has the photograph of Pip in his project book too. We both stare at the black and white shot of a beaming, dark-haired boy who looks like the cheekiest kid who ever lived. His huge grin, his lips pressed together as if swallowing laughter, and his shining eyes all suggest a little rascal. He’s wearing dark coloured shorts and wellington boots, and a dark zip up cardigan which looks too small for him. He’s clutching one of those tiddler catchers, you know, a colourful net on a bamboo stick. Ed reads on:
‘A couple walking their dog across the bridge reported the sighting the following day after the alarm had been raised. Mr Weathers told the police that the boy was leaning over the railings and appeared to be alone. They said hello and walked on. They walked their dog in Ramsdown Forest on the opposite side of Christchurch Road, and when they later walked back the same way over the bridge on Hurn Court Lane, the boy was gone. He had however left a note on the railings of the bridge.’
Ed runs his finger over the next photo in his book, one taken back in 1978 of the graffiti left behind. He brings up his phone and compares pictures. It is amazing how the writing has been preserved over time. It’s even more amazing that a second note was hiding on the side of the mill all these years.
‘What next?’ I ask my brother.
He scrambles to his feet, swipes his messy brown curls out of his eyes and gestures to the landscape around us. ‘I’ll take some more photos.’ He points to the muddy banks below and the barbed wire fence beyond. ‘Go up there a bit and explore, take more photos. He might have done that, don’t you think?’
I shrug. ‘My guess is he fell in at the weir, at Throop. Left this note, walked all that way, left the other note on the mill and decided he’d had enough and he’d go home.’
Ed nods, his brow knitted in serious thought. ‘I think so too. The bridge over the weir was wooden back then.’ He opens his book, shows me another photo, this time from the 80s. ‘See? Dangerous. They never found a body though.’
‘Isn’t his mother still alive?’
Ed nods again. ‘Yep, and most of his siblings.’
That’s right — Pip came from a large family who lived in Christchurch. He had two older brothers, one older sister, one younger sister and another baby brother. I bet his poor mother was run ragged.
‘But this is a ghost investigation,’ I remind Ed. ‘Not a missing person’s investigation.’
Ed ignores me, stuffs his book in his backpack and goes down to the water. In order to keep his project classed as local history, his teacher suggested interviewing people about the ghost sightings over the years. My guess is the teacher didn’t want Ed harassing the family or the police about the cold case of the missing Pip Collins. Better to let him scratch around after ghosts, then they can all have a laugh in the staff room after.
I walk across the fallen log in my sandals, wincing when the cold water laps over my toes, holding my arms out to either side for balance. Electric blue damselflies hover above the water in pairs, and every now and then the drone of a huge dragonfly makes me squeal and duck. I don’t fall off though and when I get back to the bank, Ed is climbing back over the barbed wire with only one scratch on his ankle to show for it.
‘What now?’ I ask, following him back up to the bridge.
‘Interviews,’ he says, flicking through the photos on his phone. ‘I’ll have everything in place then. Original newspaper reports, interviews with his family at the time, the photos, the timeline, oh, and the route he took to the mill which no one knew about until recently.’
‘Think they’ll open up the case again?’ I ask him.
He shrugs. ‘They should. No one ever saw him at the mill or on the way there or back. They should at least put it in the news, see if they can jog any memories.’
Our mission for today is the two people locally who have claimed to see a ghost that resembles poor Pip Collins.
The first is Mr Coleman; a retired gamekeeper who lives in one of the cottages on Hurn Court Lane. He’s a bit stern, always used to scare the shit out of us when we were little kids, stomping about with all his camo gear on, well trained Labradors at his heels. He’d ask if we’d seen any suspicious characters about, his dark eyes narrowed on ours.
We find him in his back garden, smoking a cigarette while he waters his runner beans. A grey-faced black Lab lies in the sun behind him. He’s still wearing his camo gear.
‘I never saw the lad,’ he relays to us once Ed has his phone recorder running. ‘Not when he was alive, anyway. They didn’t come up this way, the family. This was all unfamiliar territory to the lad, see.’
‘His mum said he ran away to teach her a lesson,’ Ed pipes up.
‘That’s what I heard too,’ nods Mr Coleman. ‘Was feeling left out when his latest sibling arrived, something like that. Decided to teach them all a lesson and ran away.’ He chuckles a little at the thought then gives us a pained look. ‘Kids were always doing things like that back then. They ran free and had fun without adult supervision. Not like you lot glued to your screens inside your houses.’
We don’t take the bait. Ed smiles politely. ‘He had run away before,’ he says and Mr Coleman nods. ‘But he had never come up to Hurn from Christchurch.’
‘So, he didn’t know the area,’ Mr Coleman goes on. ‘Expect he walked up from Fairmile Road, kept going straight across Blackwater. Traffic was lighter back then, of course. And it wasn’t unusual to see kids out on their own at that age.’ He throws us another dirty look. ‘No doubt he spotted the lane all shady and curious, and decided to cross over and wander down to the bridge. Lovely place to play. Private. Sheltered by all those trees. Kids were always playing out alone back then. Plenty of tiddlers to catch.’
‘He didn’t take his net that day,’ Ed points out. ‘Nothing was found at all. Not sweet wrappers, or even footprints.’
Mr Coleman looks sad. ‘That’s right, I remember. No sign. No trace. Apart from that note on the railings but who can be sure it was him that did it?’
‘His mother said it was his handwriting,’ I shrug.
He shrugs back. ‘No one knows for sure, but I can see why everyone thought so. Cheeky little sod thought running away was funny.’
‘What do you make of the second note that’s been found on the mill?’ asks Ed.
The old man scratches his nose. ‘I’m not sure it’s connected. The writing looks different to me. They’re having it analysed or something, aren’t they?’
‘Yes, so we might know more soon, but that would make sense wouldn’t it? That he carried on down the lane, turned left at Pig Shoot and followed the river to the weir bridge?’ Ed brings out the old photo. ‘It was dangerous back then. He could have fallen in there after writing on the mill.’
‘What did the second note say again?’
Ed shows him and reads it out at the same time. ‘It says, no one can see me.’
‘Little sod,’ sighs the old man. ‘I don’t know. S’pose we’ll have to wait to see what the experts say, but that’s not where I saw the ghost, so I’m sceptical myself.’
‘Tell us about the ghost, Mr Coleman.’
He nods and settles back on the wicker garden chair. ‘It was just the once,’ he relays, his voice low and soft. ‘Early morning. I was taking the dogs over the forest and I came up towards the bridge. There was mist on the water, I remember that, and the sun was shining through the trees. Spring time, it was. Everything in bloom.
‘And that’s when I saw this little figure standing on the bridge. He looked real to me. So real, the dogs barked and I called out to him. The railings were old and they needed replacing. I thought he might fall in. Mind you, it’s so shallow there, he’d have been all right, but still… He looked back at me, you know. I saw his little face. Pale, but he was smiling. Laughing, I think.’
Ed and I sit frozen on either side of Mr Coleman. We know the bridge and the shallows so well, we can see it perfectly inside our own heads. Though I don’t believe a word of it. Everyone knows Mr Coleman is fond of the drink.
Mr Coleman goes on to describe how he approached the boy and the boy vanished into thin air. He snaps his fingers at us. ‘Poof! Like that!’
That’s when me and Ed swap a look. I can feel the giggles rumbling to life in my guts and I know we have to get out of there soon.
‘And you have never seen the ghost again?’ Ed checks.
Mr Coleman shakes his head sadly. ‘Nope, never. But I know what I saw and I know it was a long time ago but it’s always stayed with me. The way he laughed and grinned then just vanished.’ His eyes cloud with memory as me and Ed swap another look. ‘I’ll never forget it.’
We leave him to his memories and seek out our second interviewee, Mrs Doreen Goldsmith, who lives in a retirement flat in Christchurch. It’s a long hot walk into town for Ed and me, but my brother looks ever more determined, and walks silently, refusing to be drawn into my childish musings and games.
‘I know what I saw,’ the old lady asserts as soon as we are seated beside her. She’s been wheeled outside to enjoy the sunshine, but has a knitted blanket tucked over her frail knees. She’s smiling at us, her old eyes twinkling. ‘And it wasn’t just the once. It was all the time, usually at dusk, when I was heading home. I worked in town you see, biked there and back every day. It was usually nearly dark by the time I cycled down that hill and over the bridge.’
‘That’s where you would see him?’ Ed checks.
‘Oh yes, always on the bridge, where he left the note. Always holding onto the railings and leaning over. And he would always look up when I drew near, and he would always smile and laugh.’
‘Did he ever speak to you?’
‘No.’ She looks momentarily sad about this. ‘He would only laugh. It frightened me at first, of course. I was just a girl myself. But I recognised him from the newspapers and I tried to tell the police. Everyone thought I was crazy, of course.’
‘Other people claim to have seen a ghost there too,’ I remind her.
She smiles graciously. ‘Have you seen him?’ We both shake our heads. She leans a little closer. ‘You have to be there at the right time. It was always dusk for me, when the light was fading. The low sun would be reflecting off the water and he’d appear there in the beams, you see.’
Her story is strikingly similar to Mr Coleman’s, apart from the time of the day, but after we leave Ed makes a note in his book:
Coleman — a drinker
Goldsmith — has dementia
My brother seems sad and deflated when he leave the retirement home. We are exhausted but he says he can’t go home yet, not until he has followed Pip’s route to the mill and back.
So, that’s what we do, crossing over the old mossy bridge once again, then following the lane down to Pig Shoot, across the forde, and on towards the weir and the mill. We find the new note guarded by metal railings and police tape. With his phone zoomed in to maximum, Ed snaps a picture and we stare at the words side by side, comparing it to the one at our bridge.
No one can see me.
‘Coleman might be right about one thing,’ my brother murmurs, his expression troubled. ‘There are no random capitals in this one. Other than that it looks the same though, right?’
‘Right.’ I’m tired and I want to call it quits, but a sort of fire takes over Ed’s eyes and he sets off suddenly, muttering to himself. ‘What is it?’
I struggle to keep up but Ed hurries over the weir and heads back to the forde, where another old stone bridge takes us over the water. He’s possessed, I think, watching as he clambers over the railings and drops himself into the water. It’s shallow, but cold, and he gasps as his hands curl around the railings, and his eyes skim up and down as if searching for something.
Then, my brother starts shouting. He looks insane. Stood in the water, his lower half soaked through, pointing and shouting and laughing and crying all at once.
He helps me over to see what all the fuss is about and there it is. The source of Ed’s explosive reaction. Another note.
A man is following me with a gun.
I tremble, what does this mean? Ed takes a photo, then climbs out, dragging me with him. He starts comparing the three notes while I shiver on the bridge beside him.
‘How did you know?’
‘I saw it years ago! Remember when you were about four and you had that rainbow coloured bouncy ball? And it went in the water right here?’
I shake my head. ‘No. I don’t know. Maybe.’
‘Mum and dad were on their bikes further back. I was nine. I climbed and got the ball back for you and that’s when I saw the note. Pip must have been in the water when he wrote it! I only saw it because I’d climbed in too. Mum and dad were furious with me, said it was dangerous.’
I stare at him and it slowly sinks in. ‘Bloody hell, Ed!’
‘I know, I know! It’s been bugging me since the note on the mill was found. I knew I knew something, you know? You know when there is a memory or a thought or a feeling and you just can’t grab onto it?’
‘We need to tell the police,’ I say, my arms folded over my damp clothes.
‘Man with a gun,’ Ed muses, putting his phone away. ‘Man with a gun.’
We have the same thought at the same time and turn towards each other suddenly.
Around here, the gamekeeper would have been the only person with a gun.
It’s coming up two years since I joined the writing platform Medium. For years, various author friends had mentioned it, enthused about it and encouraged me to join, but I resisted because I didn’t think I had the time. Almost two years ago a writer friend messaged me again after reading one of my blogs and finally persuaded me to join Medium by asserting that my blog topics and style were just the sort of thing that did well on Medium.
I gave in and joined and I quickly discovered he was right! Once I had joined the Partner Programme and was eligible to earn from my essays, articles, stories and poems, I found the boosts, the positive comments and the money came flowing in.
I was overjoyed. I felt validated. I felt like a real writer.
You’d think that after 12 years of publishing and 23 books released, I’d feel like a real writer, but the truth is, I don’t. Not much has changed for me during those 12 years. I have never had the spare money to throw at advertising my books, but I have done everything they tell you to do to get your books noticed. One of the main pieces of advice I recall reading at the time, was to get on with writing the next book, because once you have more books out there, it all gets easier.
I have never found that to be true. From the moment I published The Mess of Me in 2013, to the moment I released its sequel The Mess Of Us in 2025, I have made a few sales a month. Yes, some months are better than others, and I have never, ever had a month without sales. I am told that for an indie author with no advertising budget, that is not too shabby. And I do agree – with the billions of other books to compete with out there and the social media algorithms wanting you to pay to be seen, it is extremely hard to get sales and make it.
A few years back I reached out to some successful indie authors to ask what their secret was. The answer was not surprising – money. These authors were able to spend hundreds of pounds marketing their books at the start and now they don’t have to. They’ve made a name for themselves, and gained a loyal following.
I am constantly shouting into the abyss, despite how hard I work, despite how many books I write and publish, despite overwhelmingly positive reviews and a handful of awards… I cannot do any better. I am stuck right where I was at the start.
So, although I am still as addicted to writing as ever, and I will never stop as long as I have these ideas in my head, I am honestly hard-pressed to feel like a real writer most days. It doesn’t help that my close family and friends don’t give a shit and refuse to do the one thing they could do to support me in my life.
You can imagine how elated I felt when Medium started rewarding me so quickly. I was so happy! People were reading and commenting on my work. I was getting boosted regularly. Somehow, I was doing it right! And I was getting paid! I was making extra money, more than I had dreamed of to be honest. It made a massive difference to our finances and I even started thinking about putting some away and using it to better market my books.
Then in January, everything changed.
No one knows why and as far as I can tell, the answers are still not terribly forthcoming. Views, reads and earnings plummeted. At the same time, AI slop, bots, scammers and spammers were going through the roof and basically ruining it for everyone. Some say the drop in earnings is a reflection of Medium getting to grips with all that… But I don’t know.
I wasn’t too bad off in January because I’d been boosted a few times in December. January was awful. I barely made anything, and February was even worse. No boosts – which is a shame but not the be all and end all. I once made $15 on a short story that wasn’t boosted. It would take me a long time to make $15 from my books. No kidding.
By the time March arrived I felt like giving up. Millions of writers had jumped ship to Substack and I did the same, though I kept my Medium account. I still posted in February, but not as much. I suppose I had a crisis of confidence. I kept taking it personally. What had I done wrong? Had my writing declined in quality? Was the stuff I wrote just not wanted anymore? I still can’t figure it out.
Substack is great, by the way, and is shaping up to be one of my favourite places to hang out. It’s newsletters, any kind of writing, and social media all wrapped up in one. It took me a little while to get myself settled in, but at the moment I am posting an end of the month author newsletter, an end of the week round-up, and any poems or short stories I would normally put on Medium, I now put on Substack first.
Substack is a lot of fun but it is not as easy to make money there. Money is raised from having paid subscribers. I feel grateful enough to have any subscribers, whether there or here on my trusty old blog. To ask them to pay seems a lot.
I’ve set mine up for paid but have no paid subs yet and I don’t expect to get any for a long time. Still, I am happy to have almost 100 subscribers who I really hope are genuinely interested in me and my books. Let’s see what happens.
Back to Medium – I am not ready to give up on it just yet. It was foolish to ever rely on it for an income, and I didn’t, not really. It was just very handy extra money that made life easier for a bit. I am hanging around to see what happens, and like everyone else, I guess I am trying to crack the code again.
I decided to up my game in March and my content has increased back to my usual levels. It’s not making a difference so far and at this rate it is soon going to be hard to recoup the $5 you pay to be a member.
It makes me feel sad, in all honesty. All I ever wanted in my life was to be a writer. I am a writer and on good days I am incredibly proud of myself, my books, and the work I put in. I couldn’t give up writing, if I tried. It’s just what I do. It’s who I am.
But for a while there, Medium made me feel like a real writer. You know, someone whose words get read by hundreds, if not thousands of people. Someone who uses writing money to pay the bills. It was nice while it lasted but now I am right back where I began.
There had to be an answer somewhere. I guess I will keep on looking.
Giving up is not an option. And for all its faults and ups and downs, I will continue to publish writing on Medium. Writing there has given me an outlet for other types of work, such as essays, articles and poems, and like I always tell the kids I work with, writing in many formats and writing as often as you can, is how you get better.
I still can’t believe it. Getting boosted on Medium is a huge deal because it brings far more readers to your work which translates nicely to more earnings. I have been extremely lucky to have been boosted many times since I joined Medium over eighteen months ago, but I never, ever expected to get boosted for a poem! Poems and short form writing don’t do so well on Medium because they are so short, but it’s still a lot of fun to write them and in particular, I love responding to writing prompts.
I was thrilled to bits to have this poem boosted as it is my favourite one at the moment. It was written in response to a prompt from the Promptly Written publication which suggested keeping a gratitude journal and writing a poem a day from it.
I’ve been thinking about gratitude a lot lately so this was really timely for me and immediately caught my interest.
I wrote a poem for Monday which got a few reads and earned me a few pence, then posted the following poem for Tuesday, which was about walking my elderly dog Tinks down the lane. Getting boosted for this really means a lot as we all know she is on her last doddery legs and every moment with her is precious. For her poem to get boosted and seen by more people is just lovely.
Anyway, here it is, alongside a photo I took of her on the day in question.
image is mine
Just for while we had the world to ourselves in a moody silence just the buzzard on the oak tree looking over its shoulder to follow our slow progress just the fast flit of tiny birds from one hedgerow to another just the crows taking off lazily and the pheasant on the fence post just wandering alongside you matching your feeble pace and the age it takes to get from here to there and back again is the time it takes for everything to fall silent for this beauty to breathe so slowly that I can breathe with it in, out, in, out with the time to see, hear, taste and smell the lonely land falling asleep as winter creeps into your old bones