Black Hare Valley: Chapter Three “Paddy’s Treehouse”

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1.

The rain hammers against the roof of the treehouse. Paddy Finnis pulls his legs up and shuffles back until his spine meets the rough wooden wall. There is only one window, or rather, a gap in the wood big enough to be classed as a window. It once had a small sheet of see-through plastic nailed over it to protect the floor from the elements but it has long since torn and flown away. Now, a small puddle starts to form under the window and Paddy finds he only has limited space on either side of the window and door in which to keep dry.

No matter. The roof is solid and trustworthy. It will hold. The floor too is dependable. Paddy can still remember his father dutifully collecting piles of old wooden pallets all those years ago. The resulting treehouse was not quite the grand affair eight-year-old Paddy had envisioned but he had been happy and grateful just the same. Beyond the door, the rope ladder whips back and forth in the wind and he wonders if a storm is coming. He smiles to himself, imagining how that will affect the May Day celebrations that he won’t be going to, but he is sure the mayor will have a solution up her capable sleeve.

From his position, Paddy can see the thin stretch of garden which leads up to the conservatory. He can see his father’s rickety deckchairs and array of houseplants on the windowsills. He can just about see the blue wooden door that leads into the shop. To the right is a striped curtain and behind that, the narrow, dark stairs that lead up to the cluttered two bedroomed flat.

His eyes drift up to the windows – the long bay is his father’s room, on the opposite side is the lounge and to the left is the kitchen, both with views of Black Hare Road. Higher still, is Paddy’s room, the loft room, smaller, darker, colder but with a window on each side which gives him an almost aerial view of the whole town.

Both are perfect for stargazing and he moves his Meade LX200 telescope from one side to the other on a daily basis. Out in the treehouse he keeps his smaller Celestron Firstscope.

Paddy scowls at the weather. Yesterday had been so beautiful; one of those days when you feel good to be alive and grateful to live in such a beautiful place. But the weather in Black Hare Valley twists and turns like a restless soul and today the sky is a sulky grey and the clouds are black and billowing, throwing out rain as if in a temper. Paddy can hear cars splashing through puddles on the road and imagines folk dashing about under umbrellas. It is quite amusing however that the weather chose to be vile on May Day.

Paddy and his father had already opted to boycott what they consider to be an outdated tradition. His father refuses to bow down to the shop being closed for the day and they both think sitting a pretty young girl on a throne and pulling her through town is a bit old-fashioned, to say the least. Willow, of course, has far stronger things to say about the May Queen and Paddy hopes she turns up after working the morning shift in her parent’s gift shop. Paddy knows she detests the rain but she detests the May Queen tradition even more and he’ll enjoy hearing her rant about it.

He wants to do something in the meantime though – not just sit it out and wait for school to come crawling after him. He feels the first flutter of dread in his belly and resents it and the bullies that usually cause it; Steven, Dominic and Jesse. Thinking about Jesse, Paddy’s lower lip juts out as it tends to do when he is mulling something over.

There has been a change in Jesse Archer recently and at first, Paddy didn’t know whether to trust it or not. Willow doesn’t, that’s for sure. She still thinks his sudden and awkward attempts at friendship are part of a nasty plot; that he intends to make Paddy think they’re friends and then humiliate him at school. She could be right. She probably is right. Why would someone tough and cool like Jesse Archer ever want to be friends with someone like him?

As Mr Bishop had so unkindly pointed out on that hideous day six weeks ago, the two boys were polar opposites. Prey and predator, he had called them, right in front of an assembly of children. Paddy’s cheeks burn with shame at the memory and his small hands clench into fists on his lap.

The townsfolk always sing the praises of Mr Bishop but Paddy knows he is just another vile bully. Maybe the worst of them all. He sneers at children, looks down on them distastefully, wrinkles his nose at them as if they all give off an offensive smell. It was worse when I was at school, Paddy’s father likes to remind him, we were caned for giggling or not standing up straight enough! You kids don’t know how lucky you are.

Paddy is not sure about that but he rarely argues with his father, who has an eternal sleepiness about him that makes Paddy fear he is perpetually slipping away.

It hadn’t been Paddy’s fault that day, but it hadn’t exactly been Jesse’s either. That’s what Paddy can’t stop thinking about. If it is all a nasty plan to humiliate him, Paddy will be impressed because as Mr Bishop unhelpfully pointed out, Jesse Archer is not an obvious strategist or intellectual.

‘An animal,’ Mr Bishop had called him. ‘A predator of brute force hunting in a pack. Seeking out the physically weak and picking them off.’

Paddy shudders at the memory. It was actually Steven who had thrown the ball of wet tissues at his head but it was Jesse who had got the blame and wearily accepted it. But Mr Bishop was never one for missing an opportunity to teach. A kinder man may have sent both boys out of the hall or even to detention, but no, his eyes lighting up in glee, the headteacher had ordered Paddy and Jesse up onto the stage where he had been giving an assembly on his recent trip to Africa.

Mr Bishop went abroad twice a year and twice a year he gave endless and monotonous assemblies where the children were forced to endure slideshows in the name of education. He’d find a way to relate it to various topics they were studying but usually it was a tenuous link that none of them quite believed in.

On the screen behind them was a photograph of a lioness stalking a young, fragile gazelle. Mr Bishop kept a firm hand on each boy’s shoulder. He held assemblies alone – there were no other adults there to witness him describe Paddy as classic prey for bullies and brutes. Small, thin, weak, fragile, Paddy had felt his eyes burning into the floor as his head dropped lower and lower.

‘Probably born prematurely, poor eyesight. Quite probably uncoordinated and clumsy. Attracts the attention of the predator as an easy kill.’

Bishop had given Jesse’s shoulder a little shake. Paddy, risking a sideways glance, had seen the true fury on the other boy’s face. A knitted brow, flared nostrils, lips screwed up tight and pale as his body seemed to tremble with the effort to remain still under Bishop’s claw of a hand.

‘Predator. Survival of the fittest, you see. Taller, stronger, faster, braver. Brutish. Desperate to survive. Hunts in packs, exists in a hierarchal system. Must prove himself again and again.’

Paddy sits now staring at the puddle and still unable to quite believe the things Mr Bishop had said about them.

‘Of course, the gazelle has a choice. He can outwit the predator. Like Patrick Finnis here. A smart, quick, intellectual mind can sometimes outwit the plodding nature of a predator. But often not. It’s brute force and speed that wins.’

2

The stranger thing was the way Jesse Archer turned up at the bookshop the next day. Alone, not with his goons in tow. Paddy had been stacking books while his father answered a phone call behind the till.

Jesse Archer had slouched in, looked once at Paddy and then looked away. He had circled the shop twice – slowly, running his index finger along the spines of second hand books – pausing occasionally to pluck one out, read the back and slot it back in place.

Paddy had no idea what his game was. Stealing, probably, but he wasn’t in the mood for it. He sighed, put down the books and slipped through the maze of mismatched bookshelves to find Jesse in the far corner of the shop, perusing the books in the window display.

He looked over his shoulder at Paddy and said, ‘It’s trapped.’

‘What?’

On closer inspection, Paddy saw what Jesse was looking at. A Red Admiral butterfly was batting itself against the window in a frantic attempt to get out. Paddy put his hands in his pockets and came up bare.

‘Have you got a tissue or a handkerchief?’ he asked Jesse.

Jesse pulled a black and white bandanna out of his back pocket. Paddy recognised it – when they were a few years younger, Jesse and his gang had declared themselves outlaws. Cowboys. Jesse was at that point in his life totally in love with the fact his father had named his three sons after real life Wild West gunslingers.

He handed it to Paddy and Paddy leaned carefully over the books and used the cloth to gently scoop up the butterfly.

‘Out the back,’ he had said, thinking of the flowerbeds, and for some reason, Jesse Archer, notorious bully and good-for-nothing third son of drunken Nick Archer, followed him with a look of awe on his face.

Paddy walked to the back, through the dusty conservatory and out into the garden. The thin stretch was a colourful haven for pollinators – sunflowers, wildflowers, lavender, foxgloves, geraniums – the perfect place for a lonely butterfly.

He had crouched beside the lavender bush and unfolded the bandanna. Jesse had crouched too, and watched silently as the butterfly paused, flapped its wings twice then fluttered on to the bush.

‘Here.’ Paddy had returned the bandanna.

Jesse said, ‘Mr Bishop is a bastard. He’s wrong you know. He’s wrong about everything.’

It was the first time Paddy had considered that Jesse hadn’t just been angry up on that stage, but humiliated, just like him. It was the first time Paddy had considered that Jesse Archer had feelings of his own.

He’d nodded at the treehouse. ‘Want to come up?’

3

Now, Paddy hears a voice.

He scrambles forward and sticks out his head. His father is at the conservatory door, waving.

‘You’ve got a visitor!’

Paddy wonders if it’s Jesse. No, more likely it is Willow. He climbs down and dashes through the rain to follow his father through the shop. He looks around but can’t see Willow.

Instead, Jesse Archer is skulking in the shadows. He couldn’t look more suspicious if he tried. Paddy glances at his father who smiles and goes back to the book he is reading behind the counter.

Since the day with the butterfly, Jesse Archer has wandered in alone at least once a week and on a few occasions, he and Paddy have ended up back in the treehouse together.

Jesse never asks. He never says hello. He just wanders around the shop until Paddy intervenes. His father, ever the optimist, thinks it’s a good sign. He sees it as hopeful and has reminded Paddy to never judge a book by its cover, or by the gossip spread by townsfolk. In response, Paddy reminded his father about Jesse’s behaviour; his reputation for a troublemaker and a bully is well known.

‘He’s a nightmare at school,’ Paddy said. ‘He trips people up, he disrupts classes, he throws things at people. You don’t want to run into him.’

Paddy’s father had smiled gently before telling him that sometimes people just need a chance to do the right thing and that maybe Jesse has never been given that chance. He knows about Jesse – his family, his brothers, his background – and being the kind and gentle man he is, he feels for him. Mr Finnis think bad apples can turn good. Paddy is not yet convinced, but he is curious enough to give Jesse a chance. He hates to admit it even to himself, but he has been enjoying the boy’s company.

There is something there, he has found himself thinking, there is something about him.

And here he is again.

And this time, he walks right up to Paddy, hands in pockets, soaked through, no coat, blood on his neck.

‘I need to talk to you.’

Paddy nods and leads the way back to the treehouse. Just as Paddy is climbing up after him, Jesse holds up a hand.

‘Is there any chance of a drink? Or something to eat?’

Paddy pauses. Jesse has never asked for anything before. But he does look hungry. And weary. Like something heavy is pushing down on him relentlessly. Paddy’s father has told him more than once that Jesse does not have the best home life and this makes Paddy feel sorry for him.

‘Okay. Hang on.’

Paddy scuttles off to the kitchen, retrieves two slices of apple cake, a big bag of salt and vinegar crisps and two cans of 7-Up from the fridge.

Back in the treehouse, Jesse is sitting against the wall and glaring hard at an undefinable point in the roof – a gap between slats and spongey green moss. He looks angry as he raises a middle finger.

‘What’re you doing?’

‘Nothing.’

‘Here.’ Paddy clambers up and passes the cake and crisps over.

For a while they sit in silence. Jesse eats and drinks with his eyes fixed on the same spot. Paddy watches him silently, uneasily. He still can’t read the boy. He doesn’t understand him at all. He’s not sure he’s safe with this boy and he knows that Jesse has stolen books from them, just as his father knows.

‘It’s all right, Paddy,’ he’d said when Paddy had voiced his suspicions. ‘Maybe he’s reading them.’

Paddy hopes so.

‘More like burning them,’ Willow had snapped, churlishly.

But Paddy remembers the look of gentle wonder on Jesse’s face when the butterfly flew away. Paddy remembers that Jesse was side-tracked by its futile attempt to escape via a hard glass window. Paddy hopes that Jesse is not faking it when he asks to look through the telescope, and that he means it when he quietly declares that one day he is going to get out of this town and make something of himself.

‘What is it?’ he asks Jesse now.

The boy looks at him with sharp dark eyes. Paddy looks back and he does not see a brute or a hooligan now. He sees intensity – something fierce, inquisitive and acutely alive.

‘I tried to burn down the school.’

Paddy, visibly shocked, asks, ‘What? Why?’

‘Why’d you think? So we don’t have to go back there ever again.’

‘Oh.’ A few beats later… ‘Wow.’

Jesse looks away and shrugs. ‘Didn’t work.’

‘That’s probably a good thing.’

Jesse looks back at him and seems about to say something. But a metallic clattering sound outside halts him and they both turn suddenly and suspiciously towards the noise. Paddy stares at the end of the garden where the metal bins sit and the old gate doesn’t quite close properly.

‘There’s someone there,’ he says in surprise.

4

Jesse moves fast. Shoving the food from his lap, he shoots past Paddy and practically leaps to the ground before rushing over to the gate.

It’s raining harder now. Paddy almost slips on the rope ladder on his way down and when he lands, his other foot loses grip on wet grass and he goes down on his backside. He clambers quickly to his feet and rushes up behind Jesse who is towering aggressively over a short chubby girl in a bright blue anorak.

‘Who are you? What the hell are you doing spying on us?’

The girl just stares in horror. Her mouth an ‘o’ shape, her hands clutching the camera around her neck.

‘Were you spying on us?’ Paddy demands. He is sure he has never seen her before, which is a rare thing in such a small town.

Jesse pulls her inside the gate and she squeaks in fright.

‘Who the hell are you?’

Suddenly, there is a crack in the sky above them. Lightning forks without warning and is promptly followed by a deafening boom of thunder. The air hisses with electricity.

Paddy doesn’t think twice. He grabs Jesse’s hand and the girl’s and pulls them both towards the treehouse.

Jesse stands back, shaking now as heavy sheets of rain drum down on them, allowing the girl to scramble up first. He then gestures to Paddy, but it’s Paddy’s treehouse and he enjoys playing the host so he shakes his head and gives Jesse an urgent shove.

Jesse does not need to be asked twice. He hoists himself up after the girl and Paddy follows.

The three of them huddle together in the dry spot. The girl squeals when the sky booms again and Paddy puts out a hand to calm her.

‘It’s okay. Just thunder. I’m Paddy, by the way. I live here.’

‘Jaime,’ she replies, her voice a little high as her eyes shoot anxiously between him and Jesse. ‘And I wasn’t spying. Honest. Okay, I sort of was. But only because I’m a reporter you see, a journalist – okay, well not really, not yet, obviously, because I’m only fourteen right now but I want to be one day and so I’m sort of in training, you see? And anyway, sorry but I’m really not going to do anything with the photos anyway. I don’t even have a newspaper or anywhere to share them.’

She looks between their startled faces, smiling desperately, her shoulders bunched up to her neck.

‘You took photos?’ asks Paddy. ‘Of what?’

‘Who the hell are you?’ Jesse demands again, glowering at her.

‘Jaime Perry,’ she says again, a little exasperated now. ‘We just moved in yesterday. I’m new.’

To this, Jesse groans. ‘Jesus fucking Christ, are you fucking mad? Why would anyone want to move here?’

‘My mum,’ she frowns, looking at Paddy as if hoping he will help her. ‘She and my step-dad, Mark.’

‘Aster?’ Paddy helps her out and nods at Jesse as if to reassure him. ‘It’s okay, my dad told me Mark Aster is back in town to take over the Hare and Hound since his old man passed away. Remember? He got married. This must be his step-daughter.’

Both boys stare at Jaime, looking her up and down. Paddy sees a kindly face framed by wet blonde air. Her cheeks are as round as her bright blue eyes and her mouth is one big smile. She looks like the sort of person who smiles at everything and everyone.

‘Jaime,’ she says again, in case they have forgotten.

‘Still doesn’t explain the creeping around and taking photos,’ Jesse growls at her.

She seems to shrink, wrapping her arms around her knees. ‘I told you. I’m a reporter.’

‘You’re fourteen.’

‘Yes, I know, I said one day. I mean, one day I will be.’ She shrugs hopefully at Paddy. ‘I’m practicing. Don’t you guys practice what you want to be when you grow up?’

The boys swap a look. Paddy thinks about his treehouse and wonders if Jesse is thinking about crime. Yeah, they both practice.

‘Okay,’ he says to Jaime. ‘We get you.’

‘I don’t,’ Jesse disagrees and is still glaring at her. ‘I want to know what was so interesting about us.’

‘You,’ she corrects him and then blushes a fierce red. Paddy smiles, feeling sorry for her. Jesse just looks angrier.

‘What about me?’

‘I mean, I followed you here. I saw you get arrested at the school and I saw that policeman just drop you off here after so I was curious. I mean, you have to be curious if you want to be a journalist, so I went around the back to see what I could see. I was chasing a story.’

‘Not creepy at all…’ Jesse mutters.

Paddy is enthralled. ‘You didn’t say you got caught!’

Jesse shifts uneasily. ‘Course I did. Everything always goes fucking wrong.’

Paddy exhales slowly. He looks between Jesse and the new girl.

‘And what? Mayfield just let you go?’

‘No damage done.’ Jesse looks away. ‘Me and Mayfield have an understanding. I just came to tell you that I tried, that’s all.’

‘Jesse, you’re crazy! You didn’t have to try and burn down the school for me. Or you!’

‘Is that why you got arrested?’ Jaime is all ears and her eyes are wide, the storm forgotten as she stares greedily at Jesse.

He gives her a long, measured look. ‘Yeah.’

She slaps a hand over her mouth. ‘Oh my God. This is so exciting. I am so glad I moved here!’

Jesse examines her carefully before shifting his gaze to Paddy, his eyebrows raised.

‘She won’t be for long…’

Thanks for reading!

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COMING NEXT THURSDAY: Chapter Four “Willow Watches”

Black Hare Valley: Chapter Two “The New Kid In Town”

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1

Jaime Perry’s first genuine introduction to Black Hare Valley is cold, wet and grey. The previous day a pleasant back-drop of blue skies and streaky white clouds had accompanied the cheery delivery of Jaime, her pregnant mother, Catherine, and her brand new step-father, Mark to the town.

Jaime, ever an optimist, is not discouraged to face different weather the next day. It’s one of the things Mark says he likes about her: her optimistic look-on-the-bright-side-of-life attitude. According to him, she will fit in well in Black Hare Valley. Having a father figure is still a novelty to Jaime, one she does not think she will ever tire of.

From the window of her bedroom above the Hare and Hound public house on the High Street, Jaime watches the heavy rain pummelling the thin glass of the window. She zips up her bright blue anorak, making sure her camera is lying snugly against her clothes where it won’t get wet. On her back she wears a slightly grubby pink backpack in which she has already stashed her reporter’s notebook, a packet of Wotsits, an apple, a handful of pens and a map of the town.

‘Oh, look at you!’ Mark comes into the room carrying yet another sagging cardboard box. She sees ‘Jaime’s bedroom’ written in black marker pen on the side and smiles at Mark gratefully.

‘Oh, thanks!’

Mark places it beside her bed and joins her at the window. ‘Not gonna let a bit of rain stop you then, eh?’

Jaime pulls up her hood. ‘Nope.’

‘Brilliant!’ He beams, as if she has made his day. ‘That’s the spirit. Just like me at your age; nothing could keep me indoors! I was always out there exploring in all weather.’

‘Do you think the rain will stop in time for the celebrations?’

Mark has already filled in her in on the town’s quaintly old-fashioned celebrations for May Day.

He tilts his head at the window. ‘Yeah, I think it will. It all kicks off at 3pm. You’ll be back by then, won’t you?’

‘Wouldn’t miss it for the world. So, where shall I start?’ Jaime asks, slipping her backpack from her arms. She unzips it and pulls out the map Mark gave her yesterday.

He frowns in concentration as he unfolds it and holds it out in front of him. Jaime runs her eyes over his kindly face and the way his brown curly hair lays in wiry waves against the collar of his blue and grey checked shirt. The shirt stretches over his slight beer belly, a gap between the shirt and his jeans revealing a white under t-shirt. He lifts one hand and strokes his curly beard – a thoughtful habit Jaime finds rather endearing. Her heart thuds with pride as she watches him.

In the year and a half that he and her mother have been together, Jaime has grown increasingly fond of Mark. She was there the day they met for the first time and she likes to think it will be a story she will retell in years to come. It’s certainly one she looks forward to telling her new brother or sister one day.

According to Mark it was instant love across the bar top. Catherine had gone into the popular high street bar to ask about a job they’d advertised. She had been nervous about it, Jaime remembers, clutching her daughter’s hand far too hard as she pushed open the door and strode up to the bar. Unfortunately, the position had already been filled and Jaime had watched her mother’s face fall in dismay. Since her father had left when she was a toddler it had always been just the two of them and times had often been tough.

Catherine hadn’t secured a job that day in their old town, but she had found herself an admirer, one who eventually managed to wrangle her telephone number out of her. The rest, as they say, was history, and now here they were, in Black Hare Valley. The beautiful, close-knit little town Mark grew up in.

‘Well, you’ll never do it all in one day but I’d say find the school so you’ll know your way in the morning.’ Mark jabs a fat thumb at the pub and then drags it along the High Street. ‘Past the library,’ he notes, giving her a wink. ‘We know you’ll want to check that out. Eugenie Spires has been running that place since I was a boy. She loves a bookworm! Then…’ He moves his thumb past a row of houses. ‘You see on your left here, you’ve got the nursery and the primary school, so cross over there and take the left onto School Lane. That’s how you get to the secondary.’

‘Oh okay, that’s simple enough. Is it a nice school? Nice teachers?’

‘You’ll love it,’ he enthuses. ‘You’re gonna fit right in, Jaime, I just know it. The headteacher, Mr Bishop, is tough but fair. And then, if you carry on up High Street, you’ve got the gift shop, café and post office. If you fancy getting a view of everything, you want to carry on past the vets and take the next right onto Walkers Road. See?’

Jaime leans over to watch Mark’s finger drag a route along a long stretch of road that loops around the back of the town.

‘Church,’ he points out. ‘Some flats. I’d avoid those people though. About the only ones that cause trouble around here. But keep going… and…’ His finger traces a route up into nowhere, ‘all that,’ he says, ‘is yours to roam. Fields for miles and miles. Pockets of woods to explore. Some old ruins. One of the hill forts is at the highest point but then eventually you’ll reach Rowan Farm. That’s private, obviously, which is a shame because the entrance to a Holloway is just below the hills there…’

‘What’s a Holloway?’ Jaime asks, already feeling the itch of curiosity, the desire to click her camera lens.

‘It’s just an old path trodden down over generations, but like I said, it’s Rowan’s property,’ Mark waves a hand to suggest it’s not worth pursuing, ‘but if you cut back down Rowan Lane here…’ His finger trails back towards town. ‘You’re back in town… a park there… The theatre there…. Then take Rowan Road back to the High Street via Lupin Lane and here we are.’ He jabs a triumphant thumb over her new home, the Hare and House Public House.

‘Thanks. I’ll do that then.’

Mark grins as he carefully refolds the map for her. ‘Well, that’ll be almost half the town explored anyway. This side. And up on those hills you’ll be able to see the whole place. Beautiful, it is.’

‘I can see why you wanted to come back,’ Jaime says as he packs the map back into her bag.

‘It’s even better in the sunshine,’ he says with a sigh, slipping his hands into his pockets. ‘You’ll settle in no bother. Lovely place for kids, this. The little lad’s gonna love it!’

‘Or the little lass!’ Jaime’s mum calls out from the stairs. Mark winks at Jaime and she winks back because they are both convinced the new baby will be a boy. ‘Mark, are you coming down? There’re some lads at the door wanting to know about opening times.’

‘Coming!’ he calls back. ‘No rest for the wicked. What, this place has been closed for all of two days? But these old-timers can‘t cope without it.’

He chuckles as he leaves the room and heads downstairs. Jaime follows, pausing on the stairs to lay a gentle, wondering hand on her mother’s swollen belly.

Catherine’s round open face provides a mirror to Jaime’s own. They have the same thin blonde hair, straight, neat and cut just above the shoulders to hang limply on either side of their inquisitive blue eyes. Like her daughter, Catherine is quick to smile and good at putting people at ease. Mark insists she will make a tremendous landlady.

She strokes Jaime’s hooded head. ‘Are you sure you don’t want to wait until the rain stops, sweetie?’

‘I’ll be okay.’ Jaime shrugs. ‘I’m in waterproofs, and school starts tomorrow so I won’t get another chance to explore.’

‘Okay, fair enough.’ Catherine sighs, smiling adoringly at her lovely daughter, so determined to put on a brave face and put the past behind her. ‘Well, don’t get lost.’

‘I’ve got the map Mark gave me.’

‘All right. But come back if the weather gets worse!’

‘I will.’

Her mum pinches her cheek. ‘Okay. Have fun.’

Jaime salutes – she intends to – and hurries downstairs. She peeks curiously into the bar area and can see Mark chatting to a cluster of old men who have stepped in out of the rain. They are all wearing dark macs and flat caps and the rain is dripping onto the maroon and gold carpet. One of them has what looks like a hairy whippet on a piece of old rope and it’s shivering between their legs, staring longingly at the fire.

‘If I let you in, they’ll all show up!’ Mark laughs. ‘And we’re not quite ready, that’s all it is, fellas. Deliveries will be arriving later and we can get all these barrels filled up for you!’

‘What about a tea or coffee?’ Jaime’s mother eases past her daughter to ask. ‘As neighbours, not customers? We can do that, can’t we Mark?’

There’s a cheer from the old men and a thankful grin from Mark. Jaime turns and goes out the back way. The pub kitchen is full of boxes to be unpacked and she’s not sure how many they can possibly open tomorrow with so much still to be done. She feels a twinge of guilt. Maybe she’s being selfish wanting to go off and explore. They could do with a hand here.

She pauses at the door, viewing the pub garden and trying to imagine it in better weather. It’s a long stretch of overgrown grass with faded picnic benches scattered haphazardly from one end to the other. At the far end is a swing set and plastic slide. A faint smile appears on her rain-splashed face as she pictures her baby brother (or sister) playing on them. She imagines herself pushing the swing or catching him (or her) as they come down the slide.

2

Jaime pulls the back door shut behind her and bumps straight into a fast-moving woman.

‘Oh!’ Jaime exclaims, stepping back and blinking up at the tall and imposing figure before her.

The woman is dressed in expensive looking Wellington boots of a rich red brown colour. Jodhpur trousers are tucked neatly inside the boots and a padded navy-blue jacket is buttoned up to her neck, where a blue and cream silk scarf is loosely wrapped. Jaime can see tiny pheasants on the material. Her eyes drift up to examine the long face with thin lips pulled into a blinding, white-toothed smile. The expression is one of instant curiosity – the surprisingly youthful grey eyes narrowed and intense. Her hair is silver, highlighted with ash blonde and worn in a severe twist at the back of her head. She holds a large black umbrella from which a steady cascade of rainwater is rolling off and onto Jaime.

She steps back again and the woman sticks out a hand inside a black leather glove.

‘You must be Jaime Perry,’ she states and her voice is loud, clear, calm and slow, giving the impression of someone who is used to being listened to and obeyed. She reminds Jaime a bit of her old headteacher – Mrs Bittern – the one who made so light of the bullying she had endured.

Jaime shakes the hand. ‘Yes. Hi.’

‘Margaret Sumner,’ the lady says, dropping her hand a little too quickly. Jaime frowns, knowing she has heard the name, panicking slightly that she should know who she is and ought to behave accordingly. ‘Mayor Margaret Sumner,’ the woman adds with a quick, small smile.

‘Nice to meet you,’ Jaime says with an audible sigh of relief. ‘Do you want to go in? I was just going out to explore.’

The mayor reaches for the door handle and places one boot on the step. Feeling crowded, Jaime moves around her and out into the rain.

‘Yes, dear,’ she replies. ‘You only arrived yesterday so you won’t have had a chance yet. I feel I ought to apologise for the weather.’

Jaime snorts a nervous laugh. There is something about this woman that makes her feel like she has done something wrong. ‘That’s okay, I don’t mind the rain.’

The mayor’s eyes track her up and down. ‘Yes, well, you’re certainly dressed for it. And it was absolutely glorious yesterday.’ She stares up at the dark clouds with a troubled expression. ‘It really can turn on a pin around here. You’ll get used to it, no doubt and don’t worry, May Day is going ahead as planned. I’ve just been overseeing the putting up of three very large marquees in the park!’

‘Oh, wow! That sounds great.’

‘Yes, I hope to see you all there later. There will be plenty of food and drink and I imagine it’ll be a good opportunity for you to meet people. Well, I’m going to go on in and introduce myself to your mother now. Of course, I’ve known Mark since he was a child.’

‘Did you grow up here too?’ Jaime asks out of politeness. Her mother has always told her that the best way to make conversation is to ask questions and encourage the other person to open up.

‘Oh yes, dear,’ Mayor Sumner says brightly. ‘My family have lived here for generations. In fact they founded Black Hare Valley, were the very first to settle here.’ She nods to the opposite side of town, to the towering stretch of green hillside Jaime can just see through the gathering mist. ‘I live up on Hill Fort Farm. That’s the highest point, you know.’

‘Oh.’ Jaime smiles.

Something flickers in the mayor’s eyes. They linger just a beat too long on Jaime’s – long enough for her cheeks to flush and her eyes to widen. Has she done, or said something wrong? The atmosphere feels icy…

‘Yes, I can see you all from up there. I can see everything. Now. Off you go. I’m going to tell your mother about our wonderful Neighbourhood Watch Committee.’

‘Okay. Nice to meet you, Mayor Sumner.’

Jaime watches, feeling a little unsettled, as the mayor opens the door without knocking and goes inside as if she owns the place.

Jaime spins away. ‘Okay then,’ she says to herself as she strides out of the gate and onto what must be the end of Lupin Lane. ‘Turn onto the High Street,’ she says and heads that way.

Jaime is smiling as she emerges but is forced to leap to the side as a huge brown truck powers down the High Street and through a puddle, spraying her with muddy water.

She shakes herself off. ‘Oh, damn.’

Jaime walks on, keeping close to the wall now, until she crosses the other end of Lupin Lane and finds the library. She stops at one of the windows and can’t resist peering inside. Mark was right about her being a bookworm. She feels excitement spreading through her at the size of the library, as she pictures how many books must reside behind its redbrick walls.

‘It’s huge…’ she says out loud, a bad habit born of years of loneliness. A passing man looks over his shoulder at her and her cheeks burn again.

3

Of course the library is closed for May Day. Jaime thinks it’s quite sweet, and just a tad old-fashioned how seriously they take the celebration. Her mother told her there would even be a procession along the high street – the May Queen sat on a throne and pulled along on a horse and cart, no less. Jaime thinks it’s adorable and wonders if the school would be interested in her writing about it. She’s hoping they have a school newspaper on the go and if they don’t, she hopes to suggest one.

She is grateful for May Day though. School being closed gives her a day to mentally prepare herself before she starts as the new girl tomorrow. My new life, she thinks and smiles again. A fresh start was what they all needed. Her mother had been right about that. A chance to start anew in a place where nobody knew her or the names she used to be known by.

Chubbs….Chubster…Chubba-wubba.

Sometimes Jaime can’t believe people have it in them to be so cruel. And now she hopes to put it all behind her. To start again. To have a second chance. She takes a deep breath and moves on. She’ll check out the library after school tomorrow. The thought excites her and she strolls on with a smile upon her face.

On the opposite side of the road she sees the nursery and primary school Mark mentioned. Walking on further reveals School Lane. No problem, she thinks, my school is down there. She stops for a moment and considers her options. She could cross over. The road doesn’t look too busy. It might be reassuring to wander past the school and suss out where the gates are, check out the size of it and so on. But, if she carries on, she can take the route that Mark advised.

She could have a peek at the gift shop and café and find Walkers Road. She stares up at the other ridge of the valley where the Rowan Farm must be. She feels the sudden urge to keep walking, to plough on up the hills, get that fantastic view Mark promised and maybe even keep going.

She turns in a circle and wonders how long it would take to walk around the entire town. She feels a pull – that thirst for knowledge her mum always jokes about – to see it all and know it all, to stand up there and spread her arms out as if wrapping them around her new home.

Decision made, Jaime continues to the gift shop. It’s an old-fashioned building with thick wooden beams and a thatched roof. It’s window curves outwards, small panes of glass divided up by green wooden frames. Windchimes tinkle. The window display reveals witches cauldrons, ornate candlesticks and leather bound books. The sign on the door says ‘open’. ‘Black Hare Gifts and Curios’ – Jaime mouths the words and thinks about going in. It looks dark, cosy, enticing. Candles flicker around a solitary till and she sees a face staring back at her.

Jaime pauses, unsure whether to wave or turn away, or go inside and say hi. She panics and does nothing, just stands and stares, all the time knowing how stupid and weird she must look. The face staring back is pale and almost hidden by two thick shafts of jet black hair and a heavy blunt fringe. The girl looks about her age and probably goes to the same school.

Oh God – why can’t she move? Smile? Wave? Do something?

4

Suddenly, a noise behind startles her. Snapped free from her trance, Jaime turns to see two teenage girls coming out of the café next door. Milly’s Café is a quaint white-washed building with a thatched roof identical to the gift shop’s. The windows are steamed up and a sea of chatter follows the girls outside as the door swings shut behind them.

Jaime experiences another awful panic-stricken moment where she is frozen to the spot. One of the girls is tall and rake thin. She has long blonde hair; the thick, luxurious type not the lank, dull kind like Jaime’s; she has almond shaped eyes a deep blue colour and her make-up is model flawless. She is wearing pink wellington boots and has a cream mackintosh tied at the waist. She looks Jaime up and down and giggles into her hand whilst turning slightly to address her shorter, more buxom friend.

‘Oh my god…’

Jaime follows their gaze and sees with dismay that her jeans and anorak are splattered with mud. Perhaps her face is too. It really was a huge puddle the truck roared through. The other girl has darker blonde hair and bright green eyes. Her complexion is clear, her skin like silk and her lips wide and full. She is several inches shorter than her friend with a curvy build contained under a black leather jacket she wears zipped up to her chin. She holds a huge black umbrella and stares at Jaime as if she has just landed from outer space. Her beautiful cherry red lips break into a wolfish, yet sultry smile.

Jaime acts without thinking, suddenly thrusting her wet hand at them as she straightens up like a solider on parade. The girls swap an incredulous look and burst into mutual laughter. Jaime’s nostrils flare and her lips tighten as she fights hard not to cry or panic. This isn’t the new start she had hoped for. This is all going wrong.

‘Jaime,’ she says, lowering her hand. ‘I just moved here.’

The girls swap another look. The tall one nudges the shorter one. ‘Ohhhh,’ she says. ‘That makes sense. Yeah, we heard about that. Don’t get too many new people about here. I’m Alexa.’ She nudges her friend again. ‘This is Bryony.’

Jaime feels a surge of hope. They’re talking to her. They’ve told her their names… She beams bravely.

‘Hi. So, do you go to…?’ She nods at the school across the road.

They both frown and Alexa says, ‘Yeah, obviously. It’s the only school in town.’

‘Your mum’s married Mark Aster,’ Bryony states, her green eyes narrowing.

Jaime nods, almost proudly. In truth, she is proud of Mark. He is a fantastic step-dad and she can’t wait to finally have a sibling.

‘Oh, yeah,’ says Alexa, turning to her friend with wide eyes. ‘God, yeah, he finally found someone to shack up with.’

‘Had to leave town for a few years to do it though!’ giggles Bryony.

‘Yeah well, he tried and failed with every woman here, right?’

‘Your mum?’

‘Yeah! Yours?’

‘Of course!’ Bryony makes a puking noise and quickly bores of Jaime. She rolls her eyes and flaps a dismissive hand in her direction. ‘I’m getting wet!’ she barks and quickly drags Alexa away.

Jaime turns, opening her mouth to say something, anything – but it’s already too late – they’re swishing past her and yet another umbrella shakes a cascade of rainwater onto her head.

A movement at the window catches her eyes and when she looks, the pale-faced girl stares back her, one eye visible through the curtain of hair. Jaime can’t deal with another rejection or more staring, giggling or eye-rolling at her expense, so she turns and hurries across the wet road, just knowing that she has to get away. Her planned route now forgotten, she finds herself plodding morosely along School Lane.

She can’t process the laughing or the belittling of Mark, not yet. It’s something that will come back to her tonight when she lies in bed, wide awake as her stomach churns with back-to-school dread.

For now, she splashes along, head down, cheeks burning. She tries to hold herself together. She tries to focus on the positives: the new baby; the new flat above the pub; her mum feeling happy and financially secure; Mark, being her friend and her father figure. She smiles. It’s okay. They were only two girls. She’s sure the rest of the children will be friendly. It will be okay.

And now she’s heading towards the school but she stops short when she spots a policeman crossing the school car park with a boy in handcuffs. It is the very last thing she expects to see but her instincts are cat-like, as she springs back and ducks behind the wall where she can peer out without being seen.

Her curiosity in overdrive, her eyes huge, her teeth biting at her lower lip, she does the first thing that comes into her head. She lifts her camera out from under her anorak and takes a snap.

The policeman is tall and broad, well-muscled and white-haired. He opens the door to a police car and pushes the boy into the passenger seat. Jaime holds her breath as her eyes devour the boy. He is perhaps a few years older than her, and tall. He’s wearing a rain spattered navy blue and black checked shirt and black jeans with rips at the knees. He has dark brown hair that is long and messy, curling in soft waves around his ears and neck, falling over his face when he leans forward. Jaime can’t see his face too clearly but still, she likes what she sees. She takes another photo before the policeman closes the door.

He gets in the other side and for a few minutes nothing happens. They must be talking. Jaime’s imagination and excitement are in overdrive. What did the boy do? Why is he in the school when it’s closed? Why has he been arrested? She wants to know. She needs to know.

Suddenly, the engine starts and the police car rolls slowly out of the school car park. Jaime starts walking fast, knowing that it will soon be out of sight and also knowing that she needs to keep it in her line of vision for as long as possible.

The car turns left. Jaime breaks into a run and tries to catch up. She finds herself on a road narrower than the High Street. Black Hare Road. She wonders if there is really such a thing as a black hare. She asked Mark about it when he first met her mother and he said it was a local legend, just a bit of fun.

At first she thinks the car is long gone but then she spots it parked outside a bookshop.

The Magic Of Books – Second Hand and Rare Books Bought and Sold. Maybe the boy lives there…

Jaime hovers at the roadside. She hides behind a parked white van and peers out. She looks through the lens of her camera and zooms in. All of a sudden she is right in the car with them – although they don’t know it and she can see the policeman taking off the boy’s handcuffs. Next, the boy digs into his pockets and hands over some small items she can’t quite make out.

What is going on here? Does the boy seem scared? His position is hunched, defensive, his expression tense. The policeman looks satisfied and amused as he receives the items and then something even stranger happens. The policeman gives something to the boy and the boy slips it inside his pocket.

What… the?

The boy gets quickly out of the car, moving as if he can’t get away soon enough, and the policeman drives away, still smiling to himself. Jaime snaps another shot, still unseen behind the van, as the rain-soaked dark-eyed boy walks stiffly and somewhat reluctantly into the bookshop.

Jaime cannot believe what she has just witnessed, but she zips the camera quickly back under the anorak and before she realises what she is doing, she’s crossing the road – the chase of a story burning her throat.

Thanks for reading!

Please feel free to leave a comment letting me know what you thought of Chapter One – May Day. Please also let me know if you would prefer shorter chapters. They are quite long and I could split each in half. What do you think of the characters introduced so far??

NOTE: Please remember this is NOT the finished version of Black Hare Valley Book 1. This book has not been to my editor yet or even my beta readers. There will be typos, grammatical mistakes, and sentences that need rewriting.

COMING NEXT THURSDAY: Chapter Three – Paddy’s Treehouse

The Serialisation of Black Hare Valley Starts Next Week!

Will you be coming along for the ride? (You need to be subscribed here or on Substack, not just following.)

a rough mock-up idea for the cover – photo is mine!

A few weeks ago while in the middle of fighting writers block, the re-emergence of imposter syndrome and a general frustration with writing and publishing, I had the crazy idea of serialising my current WIP, Black Hare Valley and offering it to subscribers to read for free. That was a rollercoaster of thoughts and emotions, I can tell you.

My biggest fears in sharing the WIP were people copying or pirating the work, and people just not reading it at all. I am still scared of both those things but I have decided to kick fear aside and do it anyway. After all, that’s what writers do, over and over. Despite it being one of the lowest paid jobs there is, despite AI rising up to steal it from us, quite literally, despite loved ones often not being supportive, we still do it anyway. We write anyway.

I made the decision to share it in hope of the following outcomes:

  • increasing my follows and subscriptions on Substack where I’ll also be sharing it
  • increasing my follows and subscriptions here on my blog
  • enticing paid subscribers on Substack – worth a go!
  • increasing my open/read ratio on Substack
  • enticing people to read my other books if they enjoy the serialisation
  • enticing people to purchase Black Hare Valley when it is finally published
  • enticing people to purchase the rest of the series when it’s published as I won’t be serialising all of it
  • gaining honest feedback from early readers of Black Hare Valley
  • hopefully getting some positive comments that will encourage me to keep going!
  • having conversations with readers about the series
  • having fun!
  • feeling brave for trying something new

I’m posting the list here as I want to refer back to it when the experiment is over. It will be interesting to see if I achieve any of the goals mentioned ahead, and if nothing else, doing this will provide me with some blogging content as I examine what worked and what didn’t.

So, how will it work?

If you are subscribed to my blog or my Substack, you will get a new chapter every Thursday morning. Please note, you have to be SUBSCRIBED not just FOLLOWING. For those following my blog, you will still get the Friday posts as normal but to get the chapters you need to be subscribed either here or on my Substack:

The first chapter will go live on Thursday 1st May. May Day is a very significant event in Black Hare Valley so I figured it would make sense to kick it all off on may Day! I may, however, divide the chapters into two parts as they are quite long, so it might be Chapter 1, Part 1 one week, followed by Chapter 1, part 2 the next week. I will also include the rough sketches for each chapter to help bring the town alive for you, and the first instalment will also have a map of the town attached.

I am actually really excited about this. It feels brave at least! It feels like I am doing something, being proactive and trying something new.

Black Hare Valley is probably best described as British Folklore Horror, so if that sounds like your kind of thing, I really hope you’ll come along for the ride!

I’m Having A Huge Crisis of Confidence

But I am determined to get through this…

Image by Jakub Kopczyński from Pixabay

A few weeks ago I wrote here and on Substack about suffering writers block for the first time in my life. I was able to recognise the signs and the symptoms I’ve spent the last decade helping my students through. As a creative writing tutor, dealing with other people’s writers block has been extremely common. I had all the classic signs and was procrastinating like hell. I was even starting to dread my evening’s writing – something that is not like me at all.

I was scrolling through my phone, opening up new tabs on my laptop and scrolling through various feeds. I was ‘checking’ things like emails and my bank account, when I really didn’t need to. In short, I was putting off writing. And when I did open up that blank page, whether it’s here on my blog, a new story on Medium or a new post on Substack, I was faltering. Hesitating. I was finding it hard.

There were a few reasons for this and I did manage to get through it. I even managed to push through and finish my current work-in-progress, which was the Black Hare Valley diary style companion book.

But the feeling of being disconnected to writing has not gone away and in all honesty, it is making me feel sick. So I decided to come here and be honest about it. This blog was the very first thing I shared my writing on. Way before I published any books, and a whole decade before I discovered things like Medium and Substack, I was just here. Writing about writing, writing about life. Just writing.

If I am going to be really honest about this situation, then I have to face some uncomfortable truths, and facing those would be easier if I thought I had a solution, a way forward. The thing is, I don’t. Except for to keep trying…

The truth is I am having a huge crisis of confidence when it comes to writing. I am doubting myself like never before. I am getting ideas that I fail to follow through on. I am starting stories, poems and essays and not finishing them. I am reading and editing current WIPs and hating every word. I am feeling like an imposter, all these years later. If I am really, really honest, I am feeling like a loser. A failure.

I don’t want to harp on about why. I have covered this in other posts. I think the main issue is that all these years and books later, I am still no further along, at least not in sales and reviews. I know, I know, I shouldn’t fixate on them. I love writing and would do it anyway. I know that success can be measured in other ways, such as my writing improving, or just the amount of work I have produced.

But I don’t know. It doesn’t feel enough. I am a few years away from turning fifty and I cannot help feeling left behind somehow… Unimportant.

I don’t expect anyone to feel sorry for me or to offer advice, by the way. I am just returning to this blog in the manner in which it started. Me, offloading my thoughts and feelings. Me, trying to figure things out. It helped back then so I am hoping it will help now.

Two weeks ago I blogged about building an author platform and whether you should scrap it and start again if it’s not working. I guess this post is related to that question. Last week I blogged about whether I should serialise my WIP on here, Substack or Medium. I kind of want to but I am scared.

The reasons to do it come from the author platform query. If it’s not working, try something new. Is it time, for example, that I did try a new approach? Maybe offering my writing for free will bring in new readers, who will then go on to purchase my other books. Maybe it is worth a try,

But my biggest fear is still no one reading it…

I can’t imagine how horrible that would feel after everything.

Things continue to be a shitshow over on Medium. If my earnings go any lower, I will need to rethink my membership. Just months ago I was making hundreds every month and it gave me such a confidence boost! I felt like a real writer! I even saw an uptick in my book sales.

Now I feel like I am questioning everything I do. I guess I need a confidence boost from somewhere and serialising my WIP and offering it for free could be the way to do it…

Or it could backfire horribly…

Still, I suppose that is the worst that can happen and if it did? I would have something to blog about for a while!

Let me know what you think in the comments. Could giving work away like this bring in new readers and give me the boost of interest I need right now? Or could it make things worse?